When my heart clocked out
Smiling for you hurt my face
So I scribbled fangs on my cheeks
Little chicken-shit vampire I am
'Cause I can't
Can't Can't.
I can't tell the knot in my throat
to Fuck off when you come;
I can't untie my hair from the
pigtails you used to pull me back.
Belly sucks in, and I don't eat no more
'Cause I want all the air to go out.
Terrify, confuse, take charge of my brain
Hostile takeover, force me to a ceasefire.
Your stupid face that recognizes me
Across worlds. We talk of soul mates, but I think
You haunt me from one life to another,
You learned my tricks, and now you careen me along.
Remember puppet strings and daisy chains
Jump-rope from reality to anew, as you
Search for me, and I, inevitably, for you.
I hide my face, pirouette down my track,
Yet all I want is to see that stupid mug.
I'll turn, I must. My hind leg will snap.
All it takes is one good whistle from the sidelines.
Breathe in. Breathe out. The meds don't work.
And I can't ask them for new ones, 'cause I
Am just a fucking horse.
Alternatively, this was gonna be called "horse goggles". Sometimes, you just need to write a fucking poem, even if it doesn't work, you know?