Again I packed my bag,
Anxiety hits as it past due time,
Is this it?
That certain time has arrived.
When asked to lie down,
I was all alone.
Struggling to hang on nervously,
Second induction was just suck to bare.
I try to turn to the left, right, or both,
But my eyes are uncooperative.
My stomach hurts and it pains again,
I go to the bathroom and find that my gown is damp.
Visitor hours begin at 7 a.m.
When I saw her, I felt a tear drop.
The suffering is just unimaginable,
"I'm sorry, Mom, for everything I've done in the past."
She said, "It's going to okay',
It's normal and that how she felt,
while giving birth to me,"
I told her that "it's time,"
But she rush out and leave.
It's time to push when I told her "it's time."
I was hurried to the delivery room!
One, two, three and pushed!
Pushed! Pushed! Pushed!
I want to scream but was told not to,
I'm surrounded by strains that are pushing me.
My tears fell silently,
The worst part was that no one was there to be with me.
I hear you crying in a minute,
I was dripping with joyful tears.
It's no longer painful,
The mere sight of you screaming bring joy to my ears.
I love you with every breath I have,
You are my shining light.
I held you with gentle soft caress,
And I wouldn't let you leave my sight.
Holding you worth the pain,
And I'm willing to do it again.
I guess others might said I'm insane,
But the experience and the moment, make me sane.
You are my joy because I saw my universe in you, and I'm glad to have you.
Every hurt and tear was worthwhile.
