You Shouldn't Have

On the other side of the cold glass,
your cheek resting against the smooth seams.
I knew that look that you knew you gave,
of almosts and what could have beens.

We had a moment or two, you and I,
we shared a thought, a word and a wine.
I don't know if I'll ever come this way again,
to while away your time.

On the tips of toes you stood up tall,
reaching for what was too high and too far.
You shouldn't have stayed but you did,
You shouldn't have strayed into the stars.

Remember that time I first touched your hand,
the excitement of the unknown.
Or the time we hid deep in the trees,
Young at heart in bodies well overgrown.

I knew that you were the one for me,
but I was not the one who would be your best.
But when all that was left bare in front of me,
I succumbed and failed every test.

I wanted to be the one who made you laugh,
the Spring after a long Winter.
The person who could bloom your smile,
And upon me your gaze would linger.

Yet instead, like old Autumn leaves,
I am left to fall upon the ground.
Crackling and crunching under heavy foot,
Screaming without a sound.

A mind spinning into the surreal,
a nightmare that splits heart in two.
The irony of fulfilling your dreams,
when your dream doesn't desire you.

You never should have held my hand,
you should have pushed away at the chance.
You never should have looked my way.
You should never have returned my glance.

Broken that day and for all to come,
Unable to ever be made whole.
Everything that was always waited,
arrived and took my soul.