Zdravo svima
Toliko se trudim da uvek sve bude ok, da svi budu zadovoljni,mirni.Svaki dan donosi nove izazove i nove probleme.I izludi me kada se neke stvari ponavljaju.Od onih sam ljudi koji veruju da je svaki problem rešiv,i da svaki nosi odredjenu lekciju.Zato znam da će se ponavljati i ponavljati dokle god ne naučim dobro datu lekciju, dok je ne prepoznam.
Prevrtanjem po svojoj glavi, od opcije do opcije,nekada se osećam da mi je u glavi košnica. Bude mi teško da ispratim svoje misli od silnog zujanja i žurbe.
Pravi haos!
Mislim da sam mnogo napredovala,u smislu svog duhovnog rasta, trudim se,ali postoje stvari koje su mi još uvek okidači.Sa nekim problemima se uporno borim i kad se izmaknem i pogledam,svaka ta borba izgleda isto.Zato,mora biti lekcija,zar ne?Kako više da naučim? Razbijam glavu kako više da se postavim u datoj situaciji, menjam pristup i reakciju ali ... nekako sam još na početku.
Pročitala sam nešto što mi je zvučalo interesantno,uglavnom govori o duhovnom rastu koji se tiče isključivo nas samih.Svi smo dakle individue,posebne na svoj način,svaka za sebe.I kao takve, imamo odredjene stvari koje nas čine upravo takvima,stvari koje nas pokreću,koje nas čine sretnima,koje nas ispunjavaju na način koji nam odgovara,isključivo nama.Caka je u tome što se svi zapetljamo kada krenemo da razmišljamo o tome jer pobrkamo naše želje i želje naših bližnjih.Tu je problem.Ja kao majka uvek na prvo mesto stavljam svoju decu,kroz njihove snove i potrebe posmatram svoje želje,i teško mi je da razdvojim te dve stvari.Jer,naravno da roditeljeva sreća zavisi od sreće njegovog deteta.
Deca će naravno biti svesna svakog našeg truda kad im bude vreme za to,ali biće i svesna koliko smo poštovanja imali prema sebi u tom našem zajedničkom putovanju.A deca moraju videti u nama zadovoljstvo,mir,ispunjenost.Moraju osetiti da imamo poštovanja prema sebi.
Ja moram ponovo zaroniti u shoj duh i otkriti šta me je činilo nasmejanom, mirnom i opuštenom a da se ne tiče moje dece.Ko sam bez njih?ko sam ja ,lično ja?
Ako to uspem,i pri tome još i dozvolim sebi malo sebičnosti,malo vremena za sebe(to zapravo i nije sebičnost samo je mi doživljavamo tako), pružiću sebi osećaj koji daje krila i pokazaću njima da je ok voleti sebe,da je ok brinuti o sebi.
Definitivno ću uspravno hodati kada se zauzmem za svoje potrebe i uspem da postavim granice kako ne bih bila istrošena i nevoljna.
I eto opet dolazim do saznanja da se sve vrti oko ljubavi,prema sebi,prema svojima...ljubav uvek pobedjuje 😉
Hello everyone
I try so hard that everything is always ok, that everyone is satisfied, calm. Every day brings new challenges and new problems. And it drives me crazy when some things repeat themselves. I am one of those people who believe that every problem can be solved, and that every one has a certain lesson. That's why I know that it will be repeated and repeated until I learn the given lesson well, until I recognize it.
Turning around in my head, from option to option, sometimes I feel like there's a beehive in my head. I find it difficult to clear my mind from the overwhelming buzz and rush.
Real chaos!
I think I have made a lot of progress, in terms of my spiritual growth, I am trying, but there are things that are still triggers for me. I struggle persistently with some problems and when I step aside and look, every struggle looks the same. Therefore, it must be a lesson, right? How can I learn more? I'm racking my brain on how to better position myself in a given situation, I'm changing my approach and reaction, but ... somehow I'm still at the beginning.
I read something that sounded interesting to me, it mostly talks about spiritual growth that concerns only ourselves. We are all individuals, special in our own way, each for ourselves. And as such, we have certain things that make us exactly like that, things that they move us, which make us happy, which fulfill us in a way that suits us, exclusively for us. The problem is that we all get confused when we start to think about it because we confuse our desires with the desires of our neighbors. That's the problem. Me as a mother I always put my children first, through their dreams and needs I observe my desires, and it is difficult for me to separate those two things. Because, of course, a parent's happiness depends on the happiness of his child.
Children will of course be aware of
our every effort when it's time for it, but they will also be aware of how much respect we had for ourselves in that journey together. And children must see in us satisfaction, peace, fulfillment. They must feel that we have respect for ourselves. .
I have to dive back into my spirit and find out what made me smile, calm and relaxed without my children. Who am I without them? Who am I, personally?
If I manage to do that, and at the same time allow myself a little selfishness, a little time for myself (it's not actually selfishness, we just perceive it that way), I will give myself a feeling that gives me wings and I will show them that it's ok to love yourself, that it's ok to care about me.
I will definitely walk upright when I stand up for my needs and manage to set boundaries so that I am not worn down and unloved.
And here I come again to the knowledge that everything revolves around love, towards yourself, towards your own... love always wins 😉
Veliki pozdrav svim Hiverima od Dragane.
Greetings to all Hivers from Dragana.