Hello Mommies! How's you Friday? Hope all is ok.
Yesterday, it was Thursday. Aya's big day, her big moment. My daughter Aya's long-awaited singing recital. Her family has been waiting for it too. Excited seeing her to perform. But sometimes, in life there's unexpected challenges. In a day of her performance, Aya is not feeling well. She has cough and colds. I'm so worried about her. Part of me I want to see her perform but also I'm thinking she's not feeling well. I'm really worried. And I asked her If she wants to sing or not. I don't like she will be embarrassed, singing and something happened.
Aya answered me, I still want to sing Mama. Then I asked her again, Are you sure?" And replied to me with the same answer.
Aya was determined to go through with it. She had prepared so much for her school and other activities. I know how sad it is if she cannot perform. She prepared two Slovak songs. Aya had worked hard to memorize and feel.
We arrived at her music school. And my nerves started to grow. I had full emotions. I was anxious because I know Aya wasn't feeling well.
And it's time for the performance. As her name was called, I stood up and get my phone. Ready to record her performance. But honestly my hands were shaking. My right hand holding my mobile and my left hand holding my right hand, for support.
I was praying silently, I don't like to look her in the eye. I'm looking at my mobile. Praying that she would be able to sing both songs without any problem.
And then — she sang.
She stood up with confidence. She chose to sing two Slovak songs to showcase her vocal range. Her charm and ability to connect with the audience was stunning. Like she was all ok. Ayas grace and confidence on stage tells me that she has a bright future in the world of music. And she sang it beautifully.
-Second Song-
My baby became a strong young lady. It's a good thing that I trust her despite her not feeling well, she pushed herself and told me Mama I want to sing and no need to worry about me.
As soon as her singing was over, I wanted to come with her, hug her tight and kiss her a lot. But it's not possible yet, she sits in front. I need to calm down my emotions and wait for the whole performance to end.
Finally, it's all over. I hugged and kissed her. I told my Aya I'm so so so proud of you. Dad was not here, but for sure he will say it too how much he is so proud of you too. Because dad was busy. I am the one who watches alone.
I realized that being a mother/parent is full of unexpected lessons and challenges. Yesterday I found a precious moment, courage from my daughter who just wants to make us proud. I trust my daughter's strength and support her all the way. I know I'm so protective but she knows her limits. Her victory is our victory too. Her families in the Philippines and here in Slovakia were so proud of her performance.
I came to understand that my Aya isn't just a little baby to care for. Letting her go to explore she wants to be. Not always depending on me. She needs to be independent and choose what she loves for her to grow and carve her dreams and aspirations in life.