My dream to be a housewife has a reason , it's not like I want to be a housewife and that's it. Yeah , I also want to be a career woman because I want growth and experience more than I have experienced before but as I got pregnant and gave birth to my son all of my perception changed. When I got pregnant , my plan is to gave birth then continue to work and the one who will take good care on my son is my mother but because of circumstances before I need to resign and be a stay at home mom. For good. Yeah , I decided to be a stay at home mom for good and as of now not thinking to apply for a job again unless it's a homebase job.
Why I want to be a housewife or stay at home mom?
It's because I don't want my children to experience living with other people or taking care of other people. When I was a kid I grew up without a parents on my side , not because my mother was working but because they choose to live in Manila together with my father. I grew up on my grandmother house and from there I experienced how hard the moment when you don't have parents on your side. I will not share it specifically because I will end up crying.
When I was in High School they went home here and that's the time that we became complete but when I entered college they went to Manila again and I need to live in my Aunt's house because they are the one who will give allowance on me for my school.
After college I had a chance to be with them in Manila for years but end up living again on my Aunt's house in Sta. Mesa because they decided to be back here in the province.
Last Sunday , my father and I had a conversation.
Papa , I am thinking if I will study again and thought of taking up Education.
Remember I told you before to enroll education after you graduated High School? Edi sana teacher kana ngayon.
I don't want to be a teacher that time Papa, we know that being a teacher is such a commitment and you will spend almost of your time in school resulting that you have no time with your family. I don't want to be like that.
Then that night I am still thinking because if we live in the house of my in-laws for good and I push myself to be a teacher , who's the one who will take good care of my children and it gives me anxiety. After a long hours of being anxious about it , I realized something. I will stick with my dream , to be a housewife and to be a stay at home mom but I need to be " madiskarte " to help my husband and to save money for the future of our children.
Cheers to all madiskarteng stay at home moms here 💚
Disclaimer: I am not against with the working moms okay as my sister is also working mom because she is a single mom. I know each of us has different stories and situation. I write it based on my opinion and experiences. I also admired those working moms who do thier best to provide the needs of thier children.And this statement of mine is not final as I didn't know what the future brings to us. It really depends on situation but now I choose to be a madiskarteng stay at home mom.
I want to take good care of my children as they grew up and feel them the love and care that I didn't experience when I was children. It's saddens me to bring back the sadness I have felt way back as I want to have a happy family but we ended up broken. Naahh , I am so anxious while typing this one and can't control myself to think things in the past.
This is also the reason why I don't want to live together with my in-laws because I'm so tired of pakikisama. I just spent years of my life controlling what I want because I have no freedom doing it and I also dont want my children to experience it because life and short and we need to spend it happily and being true.
