It's not complicated, not in my eyes. Our world is both cruel and kind, in equal measures. The pain can be so unbearable at times, cutting us like a knife, knocking the wind from us until, we feel like we are drowning. We can sink with it or we can fight it. But either way, we need to feel it. To surrender to it.
We live in a world, where we are taught to numb ourselves. To put on a happy face and push our real feelings to the side, so that we can be an outstanding human. One who rises above it all.
Yes we may rise, but it will only be our shadows. Our true self is weighed down by our emotions. Trapped inside, creating blockages, causing dis ease. Life is challenging, but those challenges, bring with them a wonderful opportunity for growth. If that is our path to take.
It's hard to watch, those you love, live such a different life to you. One where the differences are so very stark. Trying to find ways on which we can walk together, or not walk at all.
Life in all of its fragility, is also so beautiful. Moments of connection, be it with nature or other beings. Moments of such peace and tranquility.
Moments of such deep love.
Moments when we feel the most free. Most seen.
The jewels of life.
Yesterday was a full on day. I found myself in two different cities and a popular beach town, all in the one day. Having to make my way through a shopping center, to get to a bus station.
It was intense and so far removed from my daily life. It was way too much for my senses. I was exhausted when I got home. As my journey had taken longer than I had planned, I had missed the last biodanza gathering for the summer.
Or so I had thought. There was to be a gathering afterwards in a beautiful piece of land, where the group would share food. So even though I was tired, I went to say farewell for now, to them.
The land is not far from me and I had to pass by the venue where we get together, to reach there. As I approached it, I felt my heart opening, as it always does. This time though I was only walking by, but as I did I felt a pull to go in. Even though the gathering would have ended almost an hour ago.
I went towards the door and when I opened it, I heard, beautiful classic music and saw lots of shoes lined up outside the door of the room, where we would gather.
I chose to sit outside on a couch, as I didn't want to interrupt, which I could feel was a beautiful moment.
But then the door opened and a beautiful friend walked out, she was surprised and happy to see me and told me that I had to join in. So in I went and I was greeted by a tunnel, lined either side with my biodanza family. I was told to close my eyes and just surrender. As each person took their turn to tell me what I meant to them. To be so honest and heartfelt.
I was bowled over, by what I received and for the amount of gratitude I have for each one of them. I felt so seen and held.
It was so empowering.
To reach a point, where life feels so right and yet so full of pain and challenges. Where there is so much more acceptance and understanding.
There is so much healing that comes from human connection.
We need it and yet so many, are starved of it.
I have enjoyed going down the Ren rabbit hole. He is ridiculously talented. He makes me feel all the pain, all the joy of life. His music can be so real and raw. He makes you feel, alive.
His music is a light, in this world.
This is his latest offering and it's another masterpiece in my opinion. A creation, for his friend who committed suicide when he was younger.
