The summer time, is when we hibernate in these parts. I slow right down, especially in the middle of the day, when it's the hottest. Surrendering to the heat and then what is left, only time to reflect, if you chose too.
I don't always, sometimes I read, sometimes I might watch something. But other times, I take it as an opportunity to really reflect over my life.
I don't feel 45, but then again, what are you meant to feel like, when you are 45. I know that we are sold different ideas about how we should behave, how we should live at that age. All grown up and mature. We're expected to be doing well, for one thing. But that again, depends on how you perceive these things. I'm not into owning g lots of things. I'm also not into make-up, I never wear it. My eldest is always trying to get me to improve my skincare.
I wash my face with water, using rose water as well sometimes. I use natural soap to clean my body. I'm lucky, that where I currently live, I get to shower using fresh well water, straight from the ground. My hair and body loves it.
If I could, I'd wash myself in the river all the time, that is my favourite. I use olive oil or coconut oil on my skin. The bare minimum really, as our bodies produce their own oils. I'm pretty low maintance and pretty wild.
Sometimes I put henna in my hair as a treatment or I make a rosemary rinse, as it grows in abundance here. I don't use Shampoo, my hair doesn't need it. My two eldest like to use it, so I do buy some for them. I really put very little on my skin. I'm more focused on what I put into my body, because that is what really feeds and nourishes me, what determines how I look on the outside.
It's not always easy seeing yourself age, as it is a reminder of our mortality. That one day, it will all be gone. But that's why it's important, to make the most of each day.
I'm not really one for selfies and certainly not one for sharing them. But if I'm going to write about how I am accepting my grey locks, then I felt I had to at least show them. Plus when you hit your 40's, you don't really give so much of a shite anymore. Cos there are way too many other things to be focusing on.
I look at myself now, at each line on my face, each grey hair and know that I earned them. I've lived and continue to live, a very full life. I've had
challenges, that have shaped me, I've also had the most amazing experiences that have opened me up more to life. So these lines, these silvery white hairs, I wear them Proudly.