A House, but not The House in my dream.
I find myself inside a house. There are others in here with me and I seem to know them all. We are all gathered in the same room, when suddenly we hear a lot of crashing coming from the adjacent one.
Someone goes to check it out and then all we hear is a scream and then a huge roar.
I look towards the doorway and there looms a huge Brown bear. It raises to it's hind legs and then roars again. Everyone, scatters somehow. It seems to be just me and two other folk, we run as the bear charges and somehow end up in another room.
The bear still charging at us. My dream continues like this, with me running, sometimes with others, but always trying to get away from this bear, that seems hell bend on attacking me. At one point we somehow lure it into a room, only to realize that they were other people in there.
We quickly open the door, turn heal and run once again. I find myself in a corner somehow and the bear is almost upon me. I see no escape and just before it reaches me, I wake up.
My heart is pounding and my bedclothes are in quite a mess at the end of my bed. It takes a few minutes for me to calm down. To get my head around, what just happened in my dream. It was just, so vivid. I feel like, I should be looking over my shoulder.
My Nokogiri saw, not a sword, but definitely something I would carry on me, if I needed to.
I'm feeling very uneasy. No where feels safe anymore. I know that I have people following me and I know, that they can attack me at anytime. To keep myself safe, I have been carrying around two swords with me.
I have found different ways in which to conceal them and also to make sure that I don't end up injuring myself, when I need to do so. I have attached two straps of Velcro to each leg. Wearing elasticated baggy trousers, helps me to keep them concealed.
I carry them everywhere I go and that feeling of dread follows me. I have been attacked in the street, on my way home. Luckily, I have managed to fight them off, but I feel like it is only a matter of time until they group together and then I don't stand a chance.
I wake up, feeling exhausted and stressed. My heart pounding once again.
I have had a few dreams, where I am being chased. Where I feel so unsafe and vulnerable. It has been the common them, these last few weeks.
I also dreamt, that I met someone and we were really getting along. We met up a few times, until I discovered, that what I thought was a human male, was actually a Robot. That one felt pretty random, to be honest. That dream was so surreal.
But yet it kind of made sense, especially as we face off this A.I evolution. It's no surprise it is creeping into my dreams. Just a bit surprised, it is in this way.
The other dreams though, they really seem to be connected to some very deep rooted feelings of insecurity that I have. Feelings that have been uprooted, as I deepen my capacity for healing.
Then, there is the overall feeling of our freedom being under attack, from every angle, especially during these last three years. We have to find ways in which to deal with all these emotions and it seems I am doing that through my dreams.
I wouldn't mind a night off though.
