How are you all? I hope you’re having a good day. I was fine too… but after watching this episode, I felt a strange silence in my head. So I thought I’d write down what I felt in my own way.
Today, I watched episode 6 of season 1 of Star Trek: Discovery. What can I say… While watching this episode, it felt like everything was changing very quietly. There was no sudden jolt, but an uneasiness was building inside.
What touched me the most was the events surrounding Sylvia Tilly. At first, she didn’t seem like much, but rather, she seemed a little tired, a little messy—as we ourselves sometimes are. But gradually I realised that it wasn’t that simple. Her words, her silence… as if someone else was controlling her from the inside. I felt a little uneasy myself at this point, because it's not just a story—it's like the fear of not being in control of yourself.
I found Michael Burnham very real in this episode. He didn't act like a hero; rather, he wanted to understand everything as a human being. There was a hesitation in his eyes, but he didn't stop. I liked the way he moved forward slowly and quietly.
There's a strange feeling about Gabriel Lorca, as before. It's hard to understand what the man is thinking. In this episode, too, it felt like he was seeing everything, understanding it, but not saying the whole thing. His distance sometimes felt a little cold.
And Paul Stamets... he doesn't seem as natural as he used to. His relationship with the spore drive seems to be taking him somewhere else. He sometimes feels things that he doesn't even understand. While watching this, I thought—when a person goes beyond his limits and enters into something, where does he actually stand?
What this episode left with me was a silent fear. There were no big screams, no over-dramatisation—yet a suppressed feeling remained inside. As if everything was okay, but in reality, nothing was okay.
Before I end, I want to say one thing—after watching this episode, it seemed to me that we often don't understand the small changes within ourselves. They gradually accumulate, and eventually, they make us unrecognisable.
That was how it was today. I couldn't write it very neatly… I just wrote whatever came to mind.
Thank you all.