Today seems to be one of those days where you just feel defeated by life because you just made a mistake that you can’t seem to forgive yourself for. One thing I have understood in life is that you can never get it right, you can try your best, but you can never get it completely right. You listen to people who you think have made it and you talk to them and ask them how they did it, some of them tel you that they achieved it by making a lot of mistakes and taking a lot of risks, its admirable right now because they are seen to be successful, but we are all making the same mistakes and taking risks currently with our lives, but ours is not admirable right now because we haven’t succeeded. There are times in my life where I took risks and it paid off, if I had not taken those risks, I won’t have gotten the rewards I got that made me feel fulfilled with my life. There are sometimes I didn’t take a risk and I regretted it, but for a long time I decided to not take risks because I wasn’t ready to have that risk anxiety and tension where you are constantly hoping and praying that the risks you took was worth it and it pays off. Not until I found crypto and decided, just may be I should consider taking a risk. I dont regret any risks I have taken, but the feelings that come with losing after taking the risk is really bad. For every failure I experience, I feel I had let myself down and it seems like I had taken a step backwards. This year started really hopeful for me, but lately it seems like it has been a rollercoaster of bad experiences. At this moment I needed to have at least one win to feel better about my life because lately it seems a lot of things have been falling apart. For other people that feel this way I wonder how they come out from this feeling. Financial depression is a really terrible thing we have no control over, I believe with time the feeling will fade away, but now it hurts really badly.
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I have been saving some money for something really special, I have been saving it to get myself a new couch because my old couch is really bad. So bad its becoming really embarrassing for me. Life, bills and expenses has made it really slow in saving enough money to get myself a new couch, I have been able to save just $146 for the couch but I needed more money to get this couch. I found crypto and I have been learning from crypto, this has been a cool experience for me, stumbled upon NFTs and decided to give it a chance. Met a friend who said that he has been trading and flipping NFTs for months. Talked about making over $1000 flipping NFTs, talked about joining an NFT alpha group on discord. To join the alpha group on discord, you need to pay a subscription fee, but since he his my friend and he is on the group, I dont need to pay the fee, he will give me the alpha NFT signals for free. This sounded like a really good deal and I was so happy. I was hoping that in a month or more, I should be able to flip my $146 to $1,000. The first signal he gave me sadly became a bad one as I bought the NFT, only to see that the value of the NFT tanked by 98% after 5 days. I am left confused with my loss, spoke to my friend and he is talking about how this has never happened before, this is the first bad NFT he is encountering. I really dont know how to feel about this. I just hope I can find a way to feel better.
