Scrolling through my feed and looking for writing inspiration, I stumbled upon #HiveBloPoMo prompts for April. Seeing that today is April, 3 means I am three days late.
But I decided to check out the posting ideas and yesterday's prompt stopped me in my tracks.
For reconciliation day, write about a relationship you wish to amend. Source
It would have been perfect if this amended relationship had anything to do with my fellow human, but, I am sorry to burst your bubbles... It's not.
Instead, the relationship I wish to amend is my relationship with money. I have sinned against money and I need to confess my sins and start a new one. A born-again financier (phew I have no idea what that means anyway)
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However, I must stop spending recklessly and buying things on impulse. I need to use a 30 days window to determine if I really need a thing or not. Right now, I have two things I need to buy. One of which is a system, I have been going over the pros and cons of getting one at the moment, and just as everyone else in the city, a pump would have set this plan in stone. Seeing that a pump isn't near, or even unpredictable, I have been torn between closing my eyes and buying one.
The fact that I am talking about this today, means I am yet to make up my mind.
Notwithstanding, my relationship with money needs reconciliation. I have to start remembering that whatever I spend today, reduces the freedom I'll have tomorrow. So, if I desire more freedom in the future then I have to live well below my means and learn to save vigorously.
I do hope that I'll be able to take conscious steps to make this reconciliation a reality. The rewards for doing this outweigh whatever short-term/instant gratification I could be enjoying at the moment.
I do need to understand and take charge of the ways I spend money and what I spend on. It should be something that improves the quality of my life if not, it wouldn't be worth the stress. I need an enriching style of financial management, instead of a scarcity style of spending.
Bad money management I have come to realize takes away my choices in life, and if this reconciliation is what I need to take back control then I have to seat up and make it happen. I'll love to make sure the financial afflictions that affect other people won't find me and this I can only do if I learn to deal with my financial demons.
And so help me God!