The last few weeks have been very positive for me. I have been able to take small but significant steps to improving my satisfaction which is something that has eluded me for several months. I've been able to pull together a string of consistent performances over the last two weeks - running 4-5 times a week, praying daily, writing daily and reaching out to loved ones more.
The reason for this sudden shift in trajectory is not a mystery. I proceeded on my annual vacation two weeks ago that has bought me the one thing I've felt most robbed off over the last two years - Time. The freedom has also reminded me about my goals, desires and vision for myself before everything became one huge blur and every action felt robotic.
Now the goal is to sustain the momentum but that has never been an easy feat, even on my best days. Once work resumes and the workload piles up I wonder how long I'll last until the pressure gets to me and I break routine. It isn't like am preparing for failure either, or I want to fail. Rather circumstances sometimes have a way of dictating action and only the disciplined and determined scale through.
So am literally preparing myself for a battle. Hopefully I build enough momentum and fortitude before resumption to carry me through. For now am just in a happy place and will make the most of the rest of my vacation.