What have been your worst financial decisions?

I just remembered I have another limiting belief. I read Hive account@josediccus's post in the morning and couldn't help but feel guilty. I have always had money. Never used it for me. I have always wanted to make the next person happy. It could be a friend, a fiancee, a parent, a sibling, or any relative.

I usually thought I may not see them again. Life has a way of taking them away within a twinkle of an eye. So every damn opportunity I get, I try to serve them with my funds, my hard-earned money.

Parting with my funds never helped anyone
It will shock you to know that never has this helped them get out of their situations. Instead, it escalates. Soon, they begin feeling deserving. They want more. And at some point, I get exhausted out of everything including funds. Then, they leave.

I'll be left by myself to start afresh from anywhere. When it starts getting rosy again, life brings another human. Time and time again, I forget the past and start again. The same mistake. More than once.

I never seem to learn my lessons. I always throw the hurts out the window and have faith in humanity again. Again and again.

Today, Hive account@josediccus stops me in my tracks and I cried. I cried not because I have been foolish a lot of times, no, I cried because I remember what each person had said to me the day we went separate ways. It came back, rushing off as though it happened yesterday, the wounds get scratches, blood starts oozing out in the form of tears.

I should not be doing this. Crying over split milk. No. I am encouraged by what he wrote when he said,

It's sentimental to invest in people when you're just a new millionaire, it becomes logical when you're an established millionaire, and it is rather rational to choose to grow when you're exposed to money you never really worked for.People & Assets: A Probable Investment?

I have been sentimental about my funds. I have been misguided to think the different people in my life deserve to be taken care of at the expense of my financial freedom. I have been stupid. Stupid. No, I have been an idiot.

I am glad I have been exposed to the right financial principles recently, and I am learning all that I can. Never again, will I allow the burden of feelings and sentiments to rid me of my hard earn money when it is supposed to be working for me.

I am confident that once I am wealthy, my loved ones will be well taken care of. I won't be able to do that if I keep misguiding my money. If I continue to send my money to the wrong places, I am selling my life energy and it will get to the point I won't have enough energy to start afresh. Then I would become the old woman who depends on another to live and breathe till the next day.

No, I'll make amends. I will start taking care of my finances. I will look into every tiny detail. Learn about all the investment portfolios. Understand the market, and make better financial decisions.

I won't be an idiot anymore. I promise myself.