Hi readers! This is the true story of my passion and the journey of risks.
So, when I was just done with my entrance exams, I got offers from the two top engineering universities of the country, my friends and family were cheering with proud and everyone was happy about my achievement, but nobody knew my inner voice. I was in a mixed state of being happy and confused at the same time. I was also happy for my achievement but I didn’t want to pursue engineering as a career as my real interest was to study medicine.
It was very difficult to go back to high school again to study biology when every friend of mine has started their professional degrees, and to give MCAT in order to enter medical school was not an easy deal because I never studied biology from the very start and there was a high risk of being failed. My family and teachers resisted as it is very difficult to secure merit (sponsored by state) seat in our country for medicine as compared to engineering and we couldn’t afford private (self-paid) education. And I was not sure about the educational board of mine either they would allow me to give the biology exam after quitting high school or not. It was the most difficult time of my life up till now. On one side was Engineering for which Initially I have to do no efforts, simply pay the fee and start attending university and live with the guilt of not trying towards my passion, on the other hand, was Medicine my passion which almost seemed impossible to pursue but it had my heart.
So in this complicated state, my friend advised me to contact the educational board, contacted my educational board and they allowed me to give biology exams of high school, that was the day when I saw the first ray of hope. After thinking a lot I decided to leave engineering as I couldn’t live my entire life with the regret of not trying for my passion. I was ready to give a chance to my passion, and after few days I told my parents that I am leaving engineering. It was difficult for them to accept it because the Engineering university in which I got admission was their dream too, but as Asian parents, they love doctor’s title too, they were just unsure either I will get entrance in it or not, due to very hard criteria. Finally, they allowed me and they gave me full support and I started preparing for the biology exam.
This year was the most difficult year of my life as my friends were stepping forward and I was going back. The fear of failure kept me motivated, I gave practice exams, traveled a lot, and had many unexplainable issues. Every day, I used to think what if I will not get admission. There were many other fears associated with it, out of which one was, what will my relatives and friends think of me if couldn’t do it. But this fear and pain of struggle kept me motivated towards my goal, I have to do it at any cost. I gave my MCAT exam and I made it.
Finally, the day arrived, the day full of real happiness when along with my family and friends I was also happy. I got admission in medicine, luckily again in the top-ranking medical school of the city. As I am not a perfect writer, I can’t express my exact happiness in words.
If you are with me up to here, u might be thinking why I didn’t choose biology from the very start, so an answer to this is wrong counseling. Nobody did my career counseling and I chose the wrong subject with materialistic thought and misguidance. But thanks to Allah who gave me a chance to correct my mistake. This one year of my journey not just gave me my love, my passion but also taught me the following lessons:
Never leave any regrets in your life as it is very difficult to live a happy life with regrets and guilt.
Always try for your passion, if it’s meant for you no one can stop you, but if it is not then try to find happiness in God’s decision because no one can plan for you better than your creator.