The answer is simple and one worded, Salary. I get paid at the end of the month in my place of work. I must confess it feels good, like getting free money except it isn't actually free money, I have worked for it for the past thirty days or so. I have been patiently counting the days go by till the very end of month.
I love the salary and I don't despise my work but something just doesn't feel right. I am seeing myself becoming overly dependent on the salary. I am the business kind of person, hussle and make my own money and not have to wait for someone's pay into my account at the end of the month. Each time I spend the 'free money' it feels like I'm gradually spending to my doom. I see the money get smaller and smaller with each passing day of the month unlike when I used to do business and actually grow my income with each passing day.