Life always teaches us one thing: not everything goes according to our expectations, and not everything goes as we imagined, and we must always accept this. Our thoughts are powerful, but our mindset is crucial: to expect something to happen as expected. Positive thinking is important, and it also helps our lives. But in reality, the mind's actions are even more important. Often, we expect something in life that we believe will happen. But then we gradually realize that fulfillment is very difficult or impossible, and then our model for it becomes very low. It requires influence, time, circumstances, and sometimes even expectations, and everything falls apart. Exceptions always lead us out, and there are many types of exceptions in our lives.
I had high expectations that when I joined, my seniors would be great. My colleagues would be great, and when I would do internships or free corporate work, it wouldn't be so hard. But to be honest, it's been a complete shift change for me. I used to be the type of person who would mostly go to work and sleep in the mornings, but these days, my entire shift will be changed. I have to be in the office by 9:00 a.m., and that's become a huge imbalance for me. At least, I thought my seniors and colleagues would be great, but the opposite is true: their behavior is very rigid. We have to learn managers. They don't care about us, and the people around them don't even understand how to talk to us, and that's very unpleasant. I feel that I have to go to their office every day. This is a very bad and very unpleasant thing for me.
I never demanded that my office should be very good or that it should be so exceptional that no one's office is like this, but in a normal office there are good seniors, and if any problem arises, then they understand or make changes or explain to us how it happened. How the problem will be solved, but here I am completely ignored. If I ask them anything, then they say, "Why did you not study in college?" or "Did you not study?" "You have come to me to learn this," and they drive me away like this. It is a very bad thing for me, and that is why I always think. That is why I joined this cooperative world or joined this company because all these companies.
My friends always told me that office culture is very important. Even if you get a low salary, if you find a good culture, always choose that. I always wondered why culture would affect my work. Why should I listen to anyone, or why should I lose lakhs of rupees every year just because of culture? But now I understand. All this is important because when your culture was right, your thoughts were right. Your mind was pure and your own. But these days, it's become so normal, so extreme, that you always feel like you're locked in a prison. When I get off at 8 or 9 it feels terrible. It's exhausting me, or you could say, it's slowly draining my life. And they're trying to make me that way.
My conclusion today is that even if I wanted to, I couldn't leave this company for at least a year. I have to stay there for a year to gain experience and move on to another company. This is what's holding me back, and I feel like this decision is very bad. I believe this decision will seriously drag me down. Instead of updates, there's toxicity. No one talks to you properly. Whatever you're feeling, you start having a weird boyfriend. When you go home, you don't interact much with anyone because no one talks to you all day. You listen to your superiors scold you for show, and then at home, if someone says something, you'll respond. You should go to a place where there's a good environment, where people are nice, where the seniors are nice, and all of this is very important. We think this isn't important in our lives, but in reality, it's very important. Especially very much for the cooperative world.