Why is it so hard to find your spot?
When you start seeking a path in your life, you go out and get yourself a reality check. The world is different than what you assumed it to be. But, you understand progression comes slow, managed, and calculated. However, the slowness makes it worse for anyone when responsibilities collide in your progression, and thus a deviation starts to occur. The deviation starts around your progression, not because of you, but more because of trying to fit in the circle.
It has always occurred to me, trying to do things that matter the most. When I was working on a project, I thought this was the best thing to do. These would solve problems, and I felt good about my contribution to certain communities. Now, as time went by, I started finding responsibilities (or pressure) on myself to go further, so I added extra work and pressure from people around me to build an economic standard. Maybe people want me to fit in quick so I don't miss out when the world progresses fast, and then I just become a leftover.
Everything, everywhere, all at once.
Now, because people wanted you to do different things, I started doing things that would matter to everything. And, it all became everywhere spilled. Somewhere I do it for myself, and somewhere I was doing more to fit in the circle. With a hope in despair, maybe just one day, things will work out for good.
The multiple paths did provide me a holistic approach to understand and empathize to make action sustainable. Still, it did add extra pressure to be right.
Still, trying to Make time for my way
I am at a point where I realized when you do things with responsibilities, give yourself time to take opportunities if you feel a pinch of where your heart belongs. Lately, I have changed my job, and it somewhere collides with things I wanted to do. So, when I work, I have started finding my heart in those actions, as it feels like it is something relatable I want to do. I hope it will turn out to be something that I can take while working on a certain niche in the future. Finding a niche is an approach to building a funnel and then extending the effects of your action. I realized that will follow through with time, and I don't burden myself with additional responsibilities.
Pressure is an opportunity.
As life is a challenge, so is the work, and it adds burdens and opportunities altogether. As a grown-up, it's hard to bring the reality that you learn from mistakes. But, whatever the context, one does improve when one works on oneself; just seeking an improvement becomes a part of life.
However, make sure you don't put yourself down; progression is gradual, and in the end, it becomes a part of life. Theres multiple ways of doing the same thing, and your way could just be right in your own way.
In the end, the choice maker is me. I won't rush, I won't budge, and I just would work for things where my heart belongs and everything in between.
