All of the blogs that I am posting here are based on my personal experiences needless to say they are all true stories but this will be the first time that I will write a story to let my frustrations and emotions out. I admit that sometimes I do bad things out of frustration, and or I do bad things because of the mistakes that have been done by some previous persons on something.

This blog will be mostly about telling a story of how I came to hate someone because the chance and trust that I bestowed on him was wasted needless to say "I hate it when someone ruins the trust and chance that I have given them". I do not know if I can call it betrayal but I think it will be closer to exploitation. For privacy and animosity, I am not going to name the person involved.

I will start the story with him stealing more than a half cavan/sack/bag of newly harvested rice from us when we harvested our rice crops. A half cavan/sack/bag of newly harvested rice is estimated about 25+ Kilos. One kilo of newly harvested rice is about more than 16.00 Pesos at the time so he effectively stole a minimum of 400.00 Pesos from us (equivalent to about $10 US Dollars at the time). I let it pass by, my elder sister was told to talk to him but she didn't until now.

Prior to his stealing from us. I and him are the ones who worked on our rice farm from throwing the seedlings to the seedlings' bed until harvesting (harvesting usually happens three months after throwing the seedlings). His salary will be 5% of the whole harvest. We harvested 200 cavans/sacks/bags at the time so he effectively going to receive 10 cavans/sacks/bags of rice for the job which is equivalent to about less than 10,000 Pesos at the time (about $200 US Dollars at the time). But he ultimately just going to receive about 1,500 Pesos (about $30 US Dollars) because of the debt he had with my elder sister. I felt pity for him so I told my elder sister that I will give him an additional 500 Pesos (about $10 US Dollars). I was teary-eyed while I am giving him the 500 Pesos. A few minutes after giving him the money, I realized that he never said "Thank you" to me (maybe he was just old-school? Uneducated? but he is already a seasoned person at 60+ but quite strong for his age because he is farmer). Again, I let it pass by just like when he stole from us. I do not know if I am an idiot or what...

This is the exact breakdown of his salary for his three months of work. The encircled amount is what is only left on his salary. The 500 Peso bill is from me that I have given him out of pity.

After I gave him the money I told him that I am taking over our rice farm from my elder sister and that I will no longer hire regular workers but he will be my priority for an on-call job with a rate of 400 Pesos for a whole day of work (about $8 US Dollars). I called him to work on the first week of rice farming season but there are two days that I did not like the job that he has done. First, he worked half-day but he only cut the grasses of two bunds (a lazy type of work from a farmer's standard). Second, he worked half-day but he only cut the grasses of one bund (a very lazy type of work from a farmer's standard). Third, we made a gasket for a diesel engine used for the water pump (he ultimately billed me half-day for it). I let those actions pass by because of the pity I had for him and because he was one of my eldest kin or I am just being stupid.

This is exactly the one bund he cut the grass at the start of the farming season in November of 2022. Its end is near the brown thing on top of the picture. Its length is more or less 10 meters

After all of those that have happened, I slowly came to the realization that if I am still going to call him to work for me he will think that the untoward, lazy, exploitation that he has done is just okay with me. So, in response, I no longer call him to work for me. As of the moment, I think and feel that he already knows the reason why I am no longer calling him to work for me. And I ultimately realized that I hate it when somebody is exploiting the chance and trust that I bestowed on them....

That is all for now guys, catch you up with the next one. Wishing you all safety, good health, and abundance.

And by the way, after what I did he is actually sulking towards me right now. I really hate it when someone has that feeling towards me when I should be the one having that feeling because I am the one whose trust is broken, because he stole from us, and I am the one being exploited. But I do get it because there are just these kinds of people and we can't do anything about it. I did plan to talk to him but one of the elder relatives that I respected says otherwise, he told me... "Past is past, just let it be", and I did.