Bad Habits Die Hard

I have a short attention span, which is nothing to be proud of. Whatever I do, I'll never finish doing it without doing something else in between. It's not that I got distracted and lost focus, it's because I don't have focus at all!

My mind can't function well and I have scattered thoughts when I want to use it for good. When I can't seem to figure out how to puzzle them, I'll resort to watching short videos on my social media accounts and exchanging funny messages with my friends. It's ironic how I could come up with such ideas faster when it is for not important things but if it comes to my assignments, my mind is malfunctioning after maybe 5 minutes of trying to focus.

Assignments are boring indeed but only when you are not studying from the heart. And, this happens to me so often. When the subject I'm reading can't pique my interests, then no matter how near the deadline is, I'll still be on my social media actively scrolling on my news feed, leaving some comments creatively, posting funny updates on my profile, watching reels, and messaging my friends.

It's not that social media is some sort of distraction to me, I just chose to get distracted from it instead of doing all my tasks. My priorities switch in an instant if I don't like what I'm doing. It might not be a bad idea if I'm doing something educational wherein I can still gain something instead of doing the real tasks but apparently, it's not, they're purely for entertainment. This unproductive procrastination has been my habit for years now. During high school, it's still tolerable but now in college, it has to be eliminated. I was still able to put up with it during my first year because the schedule wasn't that tight and I can still do all my tasks before the deadline. However, now in my second year, that habit couldn't continue anymore.

My course is a ladderized curriculum whereas it requires the students to finish their 2-year Associate's Degree in Computer Technology before they can continue in their Bachelor's Degree in Informations Systems. Which means, since I have to graduate in my Associate's Degree first and I'm in my second year now, I have to render 300 hours of On-the-job Training to a certain company as a compliance for graduation. I have to work during vacant days and the other three days of the week will be rendered at the campus for the other academic units that I have to take up, that also means my only rest is Sunday. Such a hectic schedule, right?

Given the following circumstances, unproductive habits will no longer have room in my schedule and I have to fill my remaining time with important things that could help me in my study and finances. Currently, I consider deleting my social media accounts but unfortunately, it can't be possible since all of my classmates and professors are communicating through my Messenger App. I also tried deactivating my Facebook, but I often end up reactivating it within an hour. Bad habits can't die easily indeed.

My last resort is discipline. As much as possible, I'm trying my best to lessen the time I spend on social media and divert my attention back to reading some blogs and my books instead of scrolling endlessly for hours on my Facebook. Currently, it is somehow working and I can make more engagements now in my Hive account than in the last few weeks. Hopefully, I'll be able to discipline myself anytime soon from that unproductive habit because it shouldn't really be tolerated.

If I wasn't only wasting hours on it, I could have finished reading my books on the table and practised more on Programming. I should have reviewed my notes in advance since it was all given before the official classes started. There are more things that I could have done for myself to improve, but I only spent those times entertaining myself with social media instead.

Here's my participation to this Weekend's engagement prompt, topic two:

What is the most unproductive habit you have, why do you do it/continue and have you tried to break the habit? What would your life look like if you eliminated it?