"The uncertainty of our future is nothing more than a fog of breath on a window pane."
-Libba Bray-
I can't ever take that thought inside my head wherein future is always uncertain and we can't determine exactly what it holds for us. No matter how well constructed our plan for it, we don't know exactly what awaits for us along the way that might interfere with our decisions and plans. It is like shooting blindly in a smoky area without any silhouettes of your foes to trace. We're working hard as we can at the present as a preparation for the future. Yet, we can't truly be certain if we would end up in the path we wanted.
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As of now, I'm studying two different career paths at the same time. On weekdays, I'm attending my classes in college, taking up the Bachelors in Information Systems. Then, on weekends, I'm training as an Emergency Rescue Technician. Not that I have a lot of passion to do in my life, but I'm doing this because I'm too anxious if I can be successful in either one of them. Even someone who can help me if ever I fail in both of them, I'm not even sure whom I can rely on.
Currently, I'm still a first year college student. I'm confident that I can finish this course if I'll always put my mind into it. I don't worry much about my finances though I'm the only one supporting myself since I can always find a way to resolve it. However, just having a degree in college and a certificate in vocational courses can't guarantee my lifetime success. I need to have a continuity plan to layout the steps I have to take after that. Dealing with myself for long enough, I know I can't settle for only one option to ease my worries but a series of backups instead.
Laying down all the options of jobs that I can think of related to my course, I can mostly land on BPO companies where the jobs are in demand but the competitions are high. I can also do freelancing and then I can handle my time well. I can be in the rescue serving the purpose of my training. And maybe, I can do both, being a public servant while sharing all my knowledge to benefit those who needs it. Listing down all the possibilities and crossing out all the ones that wouldn't be possible eventually, identifying what's feasible.
Uncertainties can produce anxieties indeed. However, Eleanor Roosevelt said that,
"If life were predictable, it would cease to be life, and be without flavor."
To fear and be concerned about it is inevitable, but to ceased trying to persevere on achieving things that we wanted our life to become, you might regret it in the end. Better fail than doing nothing at all. At least, I have done my best and let's just see how it will turn out in the future.