There's so much about my life I look back on and think fondly of and have so many good memories of events which I've sought to replicate; I'd definitely not complain as it's been enjoyable, exciting and fulfilling and I feel it's been a happy life generally and I think that equates to a good life and one I can be proud of.
One of those good aspects and memories in my life...has certainly not been school.
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Initially, as a young primary schooler, I didn't mind it too much; I had some friends, got involved with sports, track and field mainly, and learned at a reasonable rate. I didn't love it, my life outside of school seemed so much better than in school, but it was ok but as I got older and went to high school I decided pretty quickly I totally hated it.
I wasn't popular at school and didn't count any of the popular girls amongst my friends. I'm not really sure why but I didn't mind too much; I was content being myself and having such an interesting and enjoyable life outside school meant I didn't rely on the relationships there to fill in any gaps; I didn't have any gaps I suppose.
I was picked on at school a little; kids can be quite cruel and it seemed I was far too tall for any of them to tolerate and because my body had developed quite early I stood out more than the other girls. This led to teasing from some, unwanted attention from boys and, because teenagers can be terrible people, I was subjected to some horrible behavior that finally made me decide school wasn't for me.
It's strange thinking about it now because I say I wasn't popular but it's because I'd developed quite quickly the boys gave me a lot of attention, so that's a popularity of sorts, but when they didn't get any of it back they turned nasty and that meant I was subjected to that poor behavior I mentioned and that led to not being popular. I was ok with it.
I have two lovely friends from school, they were my two best friends, and we laugh about it now when thinking back to those school days and sometimes wonder where those popular girls are now, what they're doing, but it really doesn't matter as we all went on to lead really nice lives, have men we love and who love and respect us in return, and have positive future prospects. Being popular in school was never something I sought or wanted and I don't mind that I never was because my life has been a spectacular creation of my own design and I think that's good enough.
Becca 💗