I don't really play guitar. A know a few chords, and I enjoy strumming and learning some of my favorite songs - if they're not too complicated that is. I'm not really good at keeping a rhythm and singing at the same time, in addition to my voice being barely "okay". I do hit most of the notes, it just sounds weird. At least to me.
But I lost a lot of the shyness about it and these days I fully embrace the fun and emotional release in singing. Yesterday, I didn't really get a chance. We had a full house (here's a video), so many musicians, a great atmosphere - but it didn't really give for me jumping in, and then suddenly everyone left.
All but a friend who I had worked with on several occasions. We set in the garden with her and Ellie, talking, and when I got up and gathered the instruments there was a confusion about her acoustic guitar and mine. She didn't know I played a little, and asked me to play a song. I haven't much played in front of people on the guitar. Worse singing and playing.
But I did, and I chose "Satellite" by Rise Against, one of my favorite bands from "back in the days". It's a straight forward song, with a few little complications that I did not master at all, but had to try several times. I hadn't played the guitar in a while.
I hadn't played much of anything in quite a while, which is sad. Only the bass on Friday evening, which is something. But since I'm back from Germany, I haven't really done much for that. I'm a bit lost. And the constant fighting with Lily's mom isn't helping. Which means that I really should do more music. More reading, and not only Marcus Aurelius.
Why am I working on opening the bakery as a café?
That's what I'm asking myself a lot. I don#t really need to do it. It's fun, I know, but it also adds stress. I like things to be great for people, I want them to feel good in my space, to enjoy every little thing. But right now, I'm overwhelmed by it. I'm not quite sure if it's my usually well trained gut feeling about it just being to much at the moment, or fear to fail.
My priorities do lie elsewhere at the moment. Yes, it would be great. Yes, it WILL be great. But not right now. I have to take a step back and reassess my situation, work out a couple of things with myself, get energized again. Because when it works out, that's one of the main reasons of my success - the passion that I pour into my endeavors. The notable excitement when I talk about something that fascinates me. I carry people along easily. But only when I'm in that state, when I'm in my rhythm.
I got to find that beat first.
Post written for the #saturdayselections by Galenkp inviting us to share music in the Weekend Experiences community on Saturdays.
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