What would happen if you just don't wake up tomorrow? Would you be satisfied with the life you have by now?
This weekend I've had the Weekend Experiences prompts running through my head. Especially the 1st one that goes like this:
I'm really bad at thinking or imagining how my life will be. I live in unstable social conditions and that's something that really affects my life choices in the long term. Since there are lot of things out of my hands I decided I would make little actions instead. Not something too big to achieve. I hope (actually, I believe) that those little actions will take me further.
Studying is just one of those little actions. When I decided that I wanted to talk about this in this post I was at the "médiathèque" at the French Alliance, precisely studying. And no, French is not a language we tend to speak in Cuba. But I discovered that, with a B2 level on French I'd be able to ask for scholarships in France. None of this is a sure thing, but the minimal chance makes me feel that it's worth it. So I prefer to spend 1 hour a day studying French than sitting around being scared of my future.
Reading is another tool that helps me to improve my mental state, so again, instead of crying because "life is so unfair", I think it's better to learn something new or even live different experiences through fictional characters. Everything is a plus when you learn to value things.
And it's not as easy as just saying it, but the fact that I'm, at least, trying, is definitely a life changer. I've met lots of people that just were so sad because of the conditions they lived in and finished settling for too less of what they really could hace created. I don't want to be like them. By now I'm learning how to change inside the social context I'm trapped in, and I'm also learning habits and habilities that might be helpful once I can get out of here.
I guess that if I die tomorrow, I would be satisfied knowing that I tried my best.
This topic really inspired me to be more cautious with my future. There are some things I need to analyze now. Hope what I've said was clear enough to you. See you soon!