In 2019 I had my first daughter Hayley. When I found out I was pregnant it was hard for me to assimilate, I went with my partner to a lab to take a blood test to make sure since the home test had come out positive. I was in another country and without family to support me, it was just me and him. At that time I only worked weekends at an ice cream parlor and my partner was the one who contributed the most money for all the expenses.
I even thought about abortion which was a scary thing for me, but in moments of desperation I came to that thought. After a few days of the news it started to excite me and him equally so we made plans. A week later we went for prenatal care and I enrolled in 2 maternity classes.
I felt happy. I never expected to have an unexpected change, my baby was born with congenital heart disease, his heart had not developed well and she passed away at 1 month and 6 days old. This hurt me so much and it still hurts. I had never cried so much in my life. My heart was shattered. But she is my daughter even though she is not with me on earth.
I remember long before I knew I was pregnant again, I was still grieving the loss of my first baby and asking my partner when was it going to stop hurting? I knew I wouldn't get an answer because he was hurting too, but he was handling it differently than I was.
On January 21 of this year my second daughter Emma was born. I used to say that I wasn't ready to be a mother again, but deep down I wanted to feel again that feeling of giving my all.
For my partner it was not a surprise since we know that we got pregnant on Mother's Day on May 8, 2022. Yes gentlemen, even though my daughter Hayley is not here we are still her parents!
This time we were already here in Venezuela and surrounded by our relatives.
So yes. I have 2 beautiful princesses.
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I want to make a note that these photos I have them on my Facebook and my WhatsApp.