Introverted.

When younger I was too introverted, it costed me a lot to word-engage with anyone, girls above all. I had this friend back then, still have(I like to think despite of life getting in the way). He was all the opposite and had this ability to come up with cool and original lines to approach girls, besides he was a handsome young man (as I was told I was, mainly by my mother though.😁).Oh man, I fucken envied him so badly, didn't hate him though, he was my friend, well, I guess he still is.
Anyway, things he came up with used to amaze both, me and girls as well, of course, in different ways, I was an admirer of the approach method, girls just fell for him quickly, I didn't see him miss one shot. I used to wonder at the time...Why the fuck am I so fucken shy that I can't do that as well? I mean, it, that confidence, the lines, the result, it was awesome. And believe me I tried that a couple of times, unsuccesfully am afraid.

Why?

Well, I was trying, without quite noticing it, to copy my friend's approaching lines and engagement strategy, trying,in a way, to reproduce his gestures and projections, but above all trying to use his own cool lines, that, of course, were cool for him because he owned them suited to his way, they were espontaneous and worked by him and his personality, but I was definitely not him.

Every time I tried that I failed, it didn't come up natural and I always uses to forget some esencial key word that in the end fucked up the whole "cool" line, that no matter what always came out, of course, incomplete or fucken coolness lack.

So, trying that was quite a mistake for sure, I did had a personality myself and also had an espontaneous dude inside that could be cool, but he apparently wasn't still ready to go out back then, or maybe I was blocking him down by pretending to be someone else that in my mind was cooler, so, as long as I kept trying to copy my friend,my inner cool original dude chosed to remain hidden.

Time and stumbles made me unblock the way and eventually brought that dude out and made me realize I had cool approaches as well as smart comments, funny and cool lines, sexy words able to engage and attract women, but in my own way. I realized then that copies of personalities or any copies at all were and are not welcome, effective, real and sustainable. I realized I was who I was and had to get the best out of it but staying fucken true to my self and shaking fears away, all I needed was some confidence.

When life, selfwork and effort gave me the chance to welcome the time to say good bye to some scenic fears and gain creative word domain abilty, among other stuff I discovered, then I felt and was ready to really build properly my own personality and over my own rules, advantages and disadvantages, my own espontaneous aproacches to girls and to life, wether they (life and girls) might like it or not, it was who I was, take it or leave it, enough copying was already done, that I realized and sticked to.

Gain or pain I was and still am original, and like it that way, am no better or worse, but truly myself and I haven't gone that bad so far that way.

Anyway, in the mean time my sexy-cool-creative-restless tongue got unfrozen there was one way I could really express myself and interact with.

Dancing.

So here I'll drop some old songs that helped to body-express myself just fine at that time when I was a bit Introverted.