What a relief it is to learn to live, with gratitude, with all the dreams, with all the challenges. This week, for different reasons, I have had to face circumstances and the message is absolutely clear, I continue learning, I continue with a "beginner's mind", feeling each lesson to adhere to my walk, only what has value, what is refined, what is subtle.

I live in the present time, although I know that I come from the future

I was the one who observed which ethnographer without altering anything in an investigation, I will tell you what I lived, and the feeling I experienced at that real, present time.

Years ago in April 1994 I was cleaning, and organizing my home, it was in the afternoon, a weekend and suddenly everything became quiet, I don't know how to explain it Galen, all that was in my mother's house which was two hours away from my house, I observed my grandmother in the kitchen, she was restless, my mother was coming down the stairs from the second floor and my grandmother told her to give her a glass of water, but look how she was holding her right hand on her chest, I saw when my grandmother heated some water and my mother asked her what is that hot water for, mother? She answered, "I'm a little cold, I want to take a bath with warm water.

Mom prepared it for her and helped my grandmother to take a bath and told her "mom I don't see you well, I am going to take you to the clinic" she accepted, we left, and the doctor told her Margarita, you have a heart attack , immediately they took her in a wheelchair to the ICU my mother fell into a crying crisis and I just watched, but the sensation of pain and my hair standing on end were real... I saw my grandmother pass away, she was crying, and she was conscious of her death.

When finished "the screenshot" I called my mom and who attended to me was my grandmother, I stayed on the site without understanding anything, at that time I did not have the knowledge that I have today about it. Several months passed from that my Déjà vu and in October of the same year there was a feast of the patron saint of the Virgin of the Rosary in that city to which my grandmother attended and participated with the people of the city.

I traveled with my family to share that weekend with my grandmother and my mom, we went to the mass at the Cathedral on October 7, and my grandmother was happy when we arrived at my mother's house, it happened exactly what I had lived again, but this time I was able to help, it is incredible, I was sitting in my grandmother's rocking chair in the kitchen, and I was living exactly the moment of my mom coming down the stairs, grandmother in the kitchen heating water, a mom helping her to bathe and from there to the hospital the family friend doctor told her Margarita you have a heart attack, the wheelchair, the ICU, I went in to say goodbye, and she was crying she took me by the hand, and we did it together I could tell her that I loved her deeply and that I would never forget her, that day she passed away, that October 1994.

After that experience, I have lived other moments that I will leave for another post

Since then, I dedicated myself to research, I did a master's degree in NLP, I prepared myself in holistic strategies, constellations, Reiki, A Course in Miracles(UCDM) conscious reconstructive regressions, meditation among other ancestral disciplines that gave me light on this I am being walking this way since 1995 to the present date.

Today and now I am able to perceive the environment and recognize the signs of divinity, guides, angels, and elementals, manifesting in my path, in gratitude, as a permanent mantra to live the present in perfect harmony, smoothly.

I know it will come in torrents

The déjà vu in my present continued, but I have learned to take away strength from the negative to lessen its intensity at this present time, I have done it with the practice of contemplating, of seeing ourselves and seeing, of doing without doing, to quiet the mind of jumps to the past and the future, of egoistic dialogues and asking permission to the totality to step on the earth, to let myself be caressed by the light of the sun and the wind, to be here present and thus to move forward.

I allow myself to be and what I have to heal, will heal, what has to happen, will happen and what is for me, will be... Life is a dance in love.

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