WE303 || I'm a bit of a scheme breaker...

In response to question 1, here is my answer.

I have felt lonely, many times, and it is not what it seems or we imagine. I swear that I don't want to romanticize loneliness, and perhaps in this sense many people are different from each other, but I can assure you that many times, loneliness brings positive changes, if we listen to it from the other side of the silence through our emotions, that's when we learn the lesson it brings us and give it a better meaning to face it.

When we are alone, and even if we feel anger, sadness, anxiety, shame or fear, we have the ability to return to a state of calm and clarity without emotion taking full control of our thoughts, words or actions.

How do I deal with it? Well, I am my own safe haven when the storm moves on. In fact, I face it one day at a time, and I am not afraid of silence, because that is where the soul reveals its truth.

I'm going to tell you an anecdote, about my last birthday, a year ago, that day, I decided not to say anything, for what? Why? I decided it that way, because not everything has to be shown, nor does everything need validation.

There are celebrations that happen in silence and transformations that are not announced. Being alone, for me, is not absence, it is presence with me beyond, from the gaze of others.

People usually believe that they know and know the life of others, but the truth is different, no one knows who the person in front of you really is. That day, in particular, I was not where you believe, nor doing what you imagine, nor was I celebrating what you suppose.

The celebration of my birthday cannot, nor does it have to be repeated year after year the same, there has to be transition, rupture and change comes from myself, from my "inside", and does not require approval, nor external validation.

This year I celebrate breaking paradigms and getting out of structures that no longer represent me. I celebrate being alone, with the courage not to adapt to what others need me to be, even if it works for them and not for me.

Over the years, I have encountered situations similar to these. I believe that true growth begins when we stop looking for idols and start holding our own inner authority. I also believe that most of us have been programmed to "last", not to live. True life is accepting the endings (of whatever) and living them for what they are, parts of a process. Pure movement and transformation, it is never a loss. No one is designed to carry everything silently...

Janitze 💃