So much swimming to die on the shore.

I never imagined that the world would end with a zombie apocalypse, I left that for the movies. Now, I find myself locked in my house, with a little heat, since I can't even open the windows. Watching through a small opening as my neighbors struggle to survive.

They take risks in search of food and drinking water, luckily when it all started, I had just received my Christmas money and went to the supermarket to stock up for at least three months of food.

Something in me, maybe my sixth sense was telling me not to waste on nonsense. Behind the door I have placed a shelf full of books, heavy and sturdy, I just pray that it is strong enough to keep out the zombies.

From time to time the electricity arrives and with it the internet, I update myself with information and continue immersed in my world. I know little about my family, since we live in different cities and countries. Sometimes I feel bored, I have no one to talk to.

I write, I read, I clean, I fix the house, I cook, everything is measured, I have even lost some weight and I entertain myself looking for the clothes in the closet that did not fit me. Only now I have no one to show them off to, I just look at myself in the mirror and parade in the living room.

How fast time goes by, it's been 80 days since it all started. I'm anxious about running out of supplies and I'm scared to leave my house. My gray hair makes me look old, I didn't include hair dye in my last purchases.

At present I can only eat once a day, I have never been so thin in my life. I am running out of physical and mental strength.

Every day zombies approach my house and try to enter. Without putting myself at risk, I throw objects out of the windows to scare them away, well, I try. I can't sleep, I close my eyes and the image that appears in my mind is of them eating my brain.

I seem to be going crazy, I talk to myself and I also wish to join the crowd of zombies. Living the way I have been living for the past few months is not worth it.

I spend all night analyzing my options... Done.

First thing in the morning I pick out a nice outfit, uncork the last can of tuna, drink water, remove the sales protection and let the fresh air in. I look like a vampire, the sun bothers my eyes.

Outside everything is chaos, I take my bag and decide to go out with a crucifix in my hand and a garlic bracelet, it was a necklace, but I used them for cooking. I'm not sure if it works, I'm confused if these implements are to ward off evil spirits or zombies.

As I walk I remember what my life has been like and feel pleased, I have tried almost everything. At this point I surrender to fate, I go for food and toiletries or whichever comes first, becoming a zombie fits into the possibilities.

I hide behind the trees, the nearby stores no longer have any merchandise. I watch as some people fight over a bag of potato chips. I continue on my way with no positive results, other than staying alive.

I feel exhausted, I don't have the strength to continue or I don't want to. I sit down to rest and a group of zombies approaches. I walk as fast as I can, but they are more, they come from all sides and surround me. I close my eyes, I don't want to see what will happen....

Some will say that I didn't fight hard enough, others that I took the easy way out by letting myself become a zombie.

Thus I conclude my entry for @Galenkp's engagement # 132. If you want to participate I leave you the link to choose your favorite option.

I say goodbye wishing you good vibes💞

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