A tour through my mind 🧠//Weekend-Engagement:WEEK 247

^@Merlysmont

Since I have spent several weekends in this community and shared with you on various occasions through this medium, today I wanted you to get to know me a bit more in depth, and I want to respond to the question "Take us on a tour of your mind: Describe and explain one fear, one hope, one ambition, one failure, one love, and one hate." proposed in Weekend Engagement: WEEK 247. So, I present my contribution for this first week of March, not without first wishing you a good start to the month.

^{A while ago I dropped out of my university degree in administration because I stopped liking it as soon as I started.}

The first things you will find when entering my mind will be some fears, including a deep fear of not finishing what I start. Many times, due to my fears and doubts, I have set aside things that were truly worthwhile. I have started so many things that are now on hold that I fear going through the same cycle each time I begin something new and ambitious. I especially fear setting aside what I like now because I don't know if I will still like it soon, just as happened with a career I started earlier or a person I left because I wasn't sure about my feelings.

And although I have that big, real fear, I also have a great hope, which is to achieve the life I desire and have always dreamed of—one in which I work in what I love, which is baking, and that allows me to live well, own a house I can decorate to my taste, have a car, nice clothes, and many shoes. I want that very normal yet very calm life, spending time with friends and kitties, regardless of whether I have a partner or children, as long as I have people or animals that I consider family and that keep me company.

^{I have visited small art exhibitions, but I want to see more}

Also, amidst that calm and, above all, simple life I want, I have an ambition to travel at some point in my life to many parts of the world to experience places full of art, especially famous major museums like the Louvre in Paris. I want to see up close great exhibitions by renowned artists, works that I have only seen in movies and photos, and those ancient objects that reflect the historical and artistic past of the world.

Oh, and delving a little deeper into my mind, my failures begin to play out—be it in love, personal matters, work, studies, and in general, in many areas of my life. Like anyone else, I have failed when I thought I was doing well, and that sometimes comes back abruptly to torment me. One of my more recent failures was in the academic field, as starting a computer engineering degree was quite difficult for me, and in my first exam, I astonishingly scored 0 points. Let's just say I knew how to solve the calculus exercises, but nerves betrayed me and for an hour, my mind completely blocked.

^{A variety of potatoes that I love are French fries accompanied by sauces and protein, called salchipapas.}

Here we reach a sensitive and very vast part of my being—love. I believe that in my life I have loved many different things and many people. I am someone who loves intensely and becomes attached easily to the people I meet, to places, situations, and to anything, so it is not hard for me to say something I love. And so, amid all that I have in mind, I won't go with the typical answer of saying I love my family, my pets, my friends, art; instead, I will say that I love potatoes. I love eating fried potatoes, in soup, in cream, in salads, French fries, roasted, baked, mashed, and basically in any dish because I consider them a very delicious food and undoubtedly my favorite.

^{As I have always been a person obsessed with reading, I have developed good spelling skills and I usually spot spelling mistakes easily.}

Uffff, and if I talk about hate, as I said, I am a person who loves many things, but that does not stop me from hating many others. Here, too, I won’t go with the typical answer of saying I hate lies, betrayal, hypocrisy, and such. Instead, I will say that I hate bad spelling. I hate when people write, either unconsciously or intentionally, with any spelling mistakes or without placing the appropriate punctuation marks. Just as I hate when someone changes the pronunciation of certain words.

And well, I truly think that's all I can show, hahaha. It's not that there's a lot to explore in my mind, although the little that is there is enough to not be 100% sane. With this, I feel like you know me well. If I ever have the chance to meet any of you in person who have read this far, you can get to know me even better. For now, that's all.

See you later, weekend experiences friends!

^{All photos are my property taken with my Iphone XR, the cover and the size of the photographs were edited with the befunky website}