Not to age, not to suffer harm, not to suffer illness, not to suffer the possibility of dying; to be immortal. It is fascinating to think about the idea of living forever and having that quality that only those we call gods and those beings that appear in the fantasy stories that the human mind has invented over time. Would I want to be immortal? I started thinking about it and today I would like to share my answer with you for this Weekend-Engagement:week 206.
I first analysed myself and I feel that I am a person who likes to know a bit of everything, explore new places, share with different people and have many anecdotes to tell; but I am also a sensitive person who finds it difficult to adapt to sudden changes, who clings to the people I love and does not easily get used to their absence.
Living forever would give me the possibility to see many new places and learn a lot of things about different subjects, and I would be able to fulfil many more dreams than a normal (mortal) person could, i would also meet thousands of people and have thousands of experiences and anecdotes to share with them. But also being immortal would mean that I would have to develop a great capacity for detachment from the things around me since I would have to adapt to many changes over time, see generations die and the people I know die.
This brings me to a much more specific question:
how would my life and relationships be affected considering everyone around me would die?
Regarding my relationships, I feel like I would be pushing others away from me all the time, I wouldn't allow myself to develop a strong connection with anyone so as not to get attached. I also couldn't consider the idea of having a partner or starting a family since I would also have to see them die and that is something very difficult for me.
Imagining a life in which I don't want to allow myself to love is imagining an empty life. I could occupy my mind at times with a lot of knowledge and different ways to have fun, but nothing would completely take me away from the feeling of loneliness I might experience. I would not fully enjoy the thousands of experiences that being immortal can give me if I thought that there was no one to accompany me.
As for how it would affect my life, besides what I said before about feeling lonely, I feel like at some point I would get bored of everything. The changes would no longer produce fear or any new emotion in me, at some point there would be nothing new left for me to discover and even if there were, it would no longer generate any emotion in me. I would be living to live and I wouldn't be enjoying the process.
