Weekend engagement #137: True love was born from a false love

We met at work, he was a business taxi driver and I worked in an institution as a social worker and enjoyed the taxi service, I don't know whether to say it was love at first sight, Even so, from our first visual contact there was a certain connection that became stronger with the constant service I received from him as an assigned taxi driver, the truth is that I saw him more than my mother at home, hehehe.

In that almost permanent contact we talked a lot and we didn't have much in common, however I loved being with him, he was a bit rough and not at all romantic, but he was very attentive and He made us laugh a lot, hehehe, every day we saw each other for breakfast and even dinner, in that daily meeting I fell madly in love with him, with his way of serving me, that captured me completely.

When things got more serious, it was no longer just contact for work, it was almost all the time, we went out to parties, records and when we decided to take the most important step You already know what I mean, it was much more complex, for me it became like a commitment. I can't stop seeing myself now as an excited fool in those times, but at the same time I don't blame myself for the mistakes made, something has to be learned in life, hehehe.

We were in love or so I always believed, together 20 of 24 hours, however it was to be expected that they would separate us at work when our relationship was discovered, that did not prevent us from following each other seeing, of course less frequently.

From my level of love, I always thought he was the man of my life, with our differences and lack of coincidence in many things it was never important to me, he told me herself: I want to spend the rest of my life with this man!! Over time we grew apart, my work was very absorbing between trips and long working hours, even so, he was there for me when he could.

A relationship of several years with a lot of that routine, we hardly shared, my parents never saw it in a good way but he was the man I wanted and they respected my decision, the fact is that the wonder that some movies offer disappeared over time, I never wanted to think anything bad about him, although many situations arose, the truth is that despite things that did not add up, I decided to be a mother and have a child with him, that's as far as I get the relationship, Hehehe, like I was thrown out of my house with a hot bath or maybe bitten by the dogs, Hehehe, now I laugh, but at that time it was a little difficult because I did not have support from this man in his role as father, it was more than the flame going out, there were simply no explanations and it gradually disappeared, my pregnancy pushed him away but it was really an excuse for him to leave me, just like that.

Economy was not a problem because I could support my daughter, I only demanded attention and affection, something that did not happen during my pregnancy and even less when my daughter was born, the truth is that I couldn't choose a worse father for her, hehehe, how sad.

There was no return from that break with my pregnancy, it was better that way, although it had its moment, after a few years I found out that his absence on many occasions while he was my boyfriend was due to the fact that It was shared among several women and also with a shoot from each one, hehehe, it was to die for. Thank God I found out years later because if it had been while I was with him it would have broken my heart forever, the best thing is that I moved on and now I'm happy without him.

I don't hold grudges or hatred, however I don't want us to be the best of friends, even so I have to have a cordial relationship for my daughter, although she is still as absent as since the start and the truth is that I could wait, for now I get along better with his current wife than with him, hehehe, that's strange but that's the way it is, and even if I wanted to erase that episode from my life my daughter reminds me of it every day, I don't blame the past because thanks to those moments I have my princess in my life and she is the purest and greatest love that I have by my side, however I stopped doing many things for that love that in the end did not turn out as expected, it was very special and ended up being a lie.