End of Identity

In life, in whatever we do, be it your profession, hobby, being a son, a friend, or a lover, as humans, there's always room for improvement. I have always believed that.

What can't humans achieve if they truly try?

Yet, as humans we are limited, we are flawed, we are afraid of change, and not everyone has the same capacity to grow. Some of us hit plateaus earlier than others, for some the limit is all in the mind, but the talented bunch is built to push on a bit farther. Whether you have reached your limits or not, the one thing we all require to be better is consistency. And to be consistent you require unparalleled focus. You have to tap into your flow state to make immense improvements.

However, when you take on risks, and take the responsibility to improve your life, destiny will try its best to put hurdles in your way; one after the other, bigger than the other. During that time you can choose to give up and stay down, or you simply get up and do what needs to be done. You must turn into a machine.

These past 4 to 5 years I've tried to focus, stay consistent, and make a difference; wanting to only achieve results. Now, even though it wasn't easy, I was prepared to go all the way, from the beginning. However, I really didn't know that it would come at the cost of losing friends, ruined relationships, and not having enough time for loved ones and family.

2024 alone has taught me a lot, I have made money and lost it, I have lost loved ones, and I have lost my own health and interest; steering away from the things that I once loved to do. I have completely changed as a man, and at this time and age, I am losing interest in every damn thing; which I surely wasn't expecting to come this soon. And the very recent experiences are not helping me at all.

I once used to love working out and eating healthily, but I don't anymore, or should I say can't? I used to love gaming, but even that doesn't interest me. I don't do much reading these days, nor do I write; here I am on HIve, after a whole month. TV shows and movies were never too interesting, but I enjoyed them; however, now every show and movie feels boring; it's all too predictable. I realized, that a part of me had died. And while I lost myself, I lost things that once meant the world to me, and with that, I lost a hell of a lot of time which I'll never get back.

I will be implementing some changes soon, as we step into 2025. I just hope that 2025 is kinder to us and that my choices don't come with such serious losses and repercussions.

There's always room for improvement, and balance does exist...