I'm just starting to really enjoy life now. I appreciate more the life I am still living today because of the good things that are happening in it. Maybe the reason for my happiness right now is not a big deal to others because I know it's really simple, but for me, it is. I am the happiest today because of those small things.
You can find happiness only if you start to appreciate even the smallest things in your life that make you smile: A little achievement, a little happiness from reading manga, watching anime, or completing a game. Small things, but it gave me joy, and for that, I am really grateful, I get to experience it.
My achievements may be small compared to some; I may have been to a few places compared to others, or I may have led a boring life in my whole existence, but I am rather grateful even for those small achievements that I reach. I am really just a simple person with a small dream and wants in life, but even if that's the case, I am so happy with my life.
So, if "ever" I die today, I can die knowing that I live a boring but happy life, it's not the best life yet because I am still enjoying the life I have today. I will be a little sad too, knowing that those small and petty things in life that I have are gone now. As in, no more tomorrow for me to do them again.
I will never see the next episode of the newest manhwa that I am reading, I will never know the ending of One Piece for which I've been waiting patiently, and I can never ever taste my favorite food again. There's no update from Hive anymore, and I can never see its price soar high, just like what I'm expecting to happen. My bickering with my Mom over petty little things, the kisses and hugs from our pet and even my cellphone, and many more I'll surely miss this, I may even have regrets.
They are really the smallest thing, no? But that's what makes me happy, even now. I see another good reason to live a stress-free life, to live the happiest life, and to look forward to another tomorrow. But this will be gone when I die. And that's making me sad, a little disappointed too, thinking about it. I am not ready yet, I will never be ready, that's a given.
I knew we were all going to die. We will all end up on the ground as skinless and fleshless bones. It's just a matter of who will go first, we all have a time limit. I thought I was ready, but thinking about all the good things that have been happening in my life recently, I am still not. I really want to stick with my wish, which is to live until my 50s.
I am living a happy life right now, but I can't say that it is the happiest or the best yet because there are still things in life that I want to obtain and reach. That path to happiness is just starting for me, I'm not even halfway there yet, and I'm still enjoying what I have right now. But I will be grateful for that life, even if it is not the best and is short, because even in a short time, I experienced that happy life. It's not the best, but it's a happy one.
