Aside from enjoying the beautiful scenery, another thing that I do when I'm in a park is to watch people. You can see different kinds of people in there, but I love to watch those "fashionable ones." I am always not updated on what's new in the fashion world or what's the trend when it comes to clothing style to this day. But when I visit the park, that's when I can get an idea and information about what's new when it comes to the fashion world. New clothing style is always the best!
I am not really the fashionable type, and I don't really give much care to what I wear, but I love it when a different kind of clothing fits perfectly for some of those people. And watching them is just too satisfying, although I can't help but envy them. Still, I really love their confidence when wearing one cool or pretty outfit. And also sometimes, I can't help but be amazed at how they are nailing those outfits or how cool they look on it. It's like a therapy that has negative and positive effect on me.
Deep inside me, I know I can never wear those kinds of clothes, but I appreciate the styles. Even though I also want to try different kinds of clothing or those kinds of clothes I saw somewhere, I am not that confident that these kinds of clothes will look good on me. And another thing, when some people try to pair a particular top with a different kind of bottom, my reaction is always hilarious because it's really surprising, you know.
And I can't help but compare myself to them, always thinking about how it would look trashy if I'm the one who wears it. It's really impressive when certain people always look good no matter what they wear. I bet even just putting a sack on them will really look classy on them. This will never work on me, I tell yah! Lol. How I wish it would, but with the kind of body I have, there's no way. And I lack confidence, so there is really no way.
But you know, doing all these things - watching people, checking their outfits, etc. - has a downside too. It makes me feel happy, but at the same time, I can't help but get jealous. That's where envy will enter, and that strong urge to think and imagine but even that will make me feel bad about myself. I don't know, it's really just that I can't help it. But I cannot stop observing and watching those people. Because even with the negative feelings I get, filling my eyes with those beautiful clothes is much stronger than my envy.
It's just hard to miss a beautiful clothing style being worn by good-looking people. It's like their style really added to the beauty they already have. And even though I can't help but envy them, the fact that my eyes really enjoyed them is enough reason to continue doing it. I'm not sure if other people do this, but this is really one of the main reasons why I watch people. It's just hard to do this often because those people I watch know that they are being watched and it'll be bad if they caught me and I don't know what to react too - if ever, (≧▽≦).
I can't just openly do it, but if there are a lot of people, doing it is much easier. When there's an event in our municipality, that's when I can feast my eyes on different kinds of people. And, oh, in a mall too, or in any public places where people often flock. And you know you have to prepare your eyes because that's when people dress up more, and you'll see more amazing people wearing their chosen outfits. It's really a feast for the eyes ( ꈍᴗꈍ) you'll began to admire them then later on envy them ( ꈍᴗꈍ).