[WE114] I Am Ashamed but I Never Regret It.

Hello beautiful Hivers. It's weekend so I am really waiting for this because of Weekend Experience Challenge. Another Weekend Experience Concept was created again by Hive account@galenkp. Just like the usual choose in those 4 Topics to write and share here. At first I want to write a story but I can't finish it on time so I choose this topic for me to write. It's a Real life experience again for me. Source

Finish the sentence (option one) Below is the beginning of a sentence which you need to finish. Explain what the thing is and why you answered as you did.

***"The one thing I will never regret in my life is..."***

When I finish college I plan to look for a job immediately. But due to my nose problems that plan never happen and even if I sulk in one corner nothing will change and I can't still look for a job that I want because my confidence really dropped to Zero level that time. It's all because of my nose and it is also because I saw my situation as a hindrance to do a good job if ever I apply. And we still don't have money that time for my dilemma to be solved. So I don't really have a choice.

And then that time comes. The time that I am waiting. The big problems I had was removed and because of that there is no hindrances anymore. I can finally move forward and with that I am now few step away to my dreams. And that is to work in the City. And because my sister is in Batangas when she went home to our hometown which is Mindoro, that is also the time that I decided to go with her. I am so excited but at the same time sad because that is the first time that I will be away with my 3 Mother.

No choice, if I want to grow I need to step up. And that is the first step. My papers are all with me, papers in applying for work and a little money for processing all of my requirements. My Mommy gave me 3000 PHP or $53.84 and I thought that is already enough but I thought wrong. In the City where everything is pricey, this money is just toooooooo little. But I have my sister who's to the rescue always. I processed a lot of requirements that time that I got short of money.

What I like that time is I already have work that is waiting for me. I just need to go to an interview and that's it. Applying for a job is really not easy but thanks to my sister who has connection everything went smoothly. I ready my papers, I also got problems with that because I am not used in doing it all alone. Specially in inquiring and all. I am too shy to do that so my sister is always with me on getting all of my requirements. It is not just me who process it all but also her. Her day off will be spent with me.

The time, the money and the tiredness that we all experience from that finally pay off. I was hired. I choose this one coz I just want to have an experience that I can add on my credentials. I was hired as a Promodizer in Robinson Lipa Batangas. Another expenses for my uniform, and my sister was to the rescue. Just like always. And for that I am so thankful to her. And after that I finally started to work. Robinson Mall in Lipa has very few costumer and that is maybe the reason why it is so cold inside that I am standing while shaking because of cold.

I had runny nose too because of it. I really really want to go outside to feel the heat again but our only break is so little and after lunch I go back again in hell of ice. It's not bearable anymore and minute by minute I am wishing for the blow of heat to touch my body. But to no avail. I was left with no choice but to wait for my shift to end. And when it finally ended, I came up with the decision that I will never go back there. It is just what I thought because of what I experience but the next day I didn't really go to work.

I know it's a bad move I know it will leave a bad impression to me but that time I am just not ready for the cold environment. I am too ashamed to even look at my sister's eyes. She work hard too just to help me but I let her down just because I can't bear the cold. I am sad too because I just let it slip in my hand. The experience that I plan to have become nothing. I am ashamed but "The one thing I will never regret in my life is when I stop going to work because I want to be with my Mother." Hear me out first.

After that, I look for another job but I am not really focus on it. But I still continue to pass my resume and this time it is in SM Mall where my sister is working. I pass it again but after just days of waiting I received a call from Mindoro saying that something unexpected happen to my Mommy. She's very old now so I felt scared when I heard about it. The next day I travel back to our province Alone and never set foot my feet again in Batangas since then. I just don't have the reason to do so. My priority that time is to be with my Mommy. She's already old and is always get a high blood.

So what happened really affected her thinking. The problem she faced is so serious but she able to solve it, thanks heaven. She's overthinking that time. So I never really regret what I did. Although I am sorry and too guilty because of it, I never regret what I did. Because I discover too that I just want to be with my oldies in our Home. And I plan to live with them until I reach 49. Maybe travel from time to time but I will stay with them until they need me. And also when I finally get home, that is the time that I got involved with Cryptoblogging.

So I can still help them because of what I earned there. I am happy that even if I let go of the opportunity that was given to me before, another opportunity arrived and that time I really grab and hodl it tightly. I promise that time that I will never missed it again. And I'm glad I did hodl of it. I am doing good here. I am already contented with this as long as I am with my family, my oldies. My dreams now is very simple. Save up and be with my family. It's nothing grand but I'll go for what's making me happy.

Let me share some of my picture. It is when I am still in Lipa City Batangas. Sometimes my Sister will bring me anywhere just to familiarize myself with the place. But because I am not that good in direction, nothing really stay on my head about the places that we went. Even this place, I already forget where is this. But I will never forget those times that we were together eating Lomi. I am also sad because I don't have a good phone that time to captured that moment. I really miss my sister now.