My name is Samantha Carolina Vasquez, just Vasquez with no middle name, because only my mom introduced me and I don't have a father. As a child this was uncomfortable and sad because I saw other children with their fathers and I didn't even know who my father was.

My mom did not live with me, when I saw her on visits sometimes I would ask her who my dad was and she would not answer me. One day at school, the teacher had the documents of all the students, including mine, she had them in reverse order of the alphabet, from Z to A, so being Vasquez my last name was among the first ones.

At one point, the teacher left the classroom and I was curious to know what was in those documents. There were all my data, my mother's and surprisingly my father's, who at that time had a name. I still wonder why my mother put that information about him there.

After knowing his name my curiosity increased, so the question was no longer who is he, but what happened?

One day she slapped me in the face, I guess she was fed up with my insisting on the subject. That slap hurt me, but it hurt me more not having answers because I thought that the reason must have been extremely ugly for her not to want to tell me, I made up a thousand novels in my head of bad things that could have happened. I wanted to know what happened, so I started asking other relatives. My aunts gave me one version each, my grandmother another version, and so I went from version to version.

There were points in common, but depending on who told me the story, the bad guy was him or her. With that information I was satisfied for a long time. As a teenager I asked her again and there she told me her version, I listened to it and now, just like when I was a child, I just wanted to know the story, to fill that void that had no explanation.

If I could change anything, this would be one of the things, to be told that story as a child, without having to insist to exhaustion, without the slaps and without having to find out from people who were not 100% involved. And above all, without having to imagine so many things looking for an explanation.