Unconditional love, its quite a thing, isn't it. At one stage of my life, I thought it didn't exist. At least not for me anyhow. That was back when my life was in a darker place. When I was trying to make sense of everything. Of this crazy world we live in. When I was a victim of life's traumas.
But things change. As life always does.
When I was a child, I felt loved by animals and by nature. I felt at peace, free to be me and I felt accepted. In those moments, I felt like this is where I belong. Out roaming the countryside, walking amongst the cows, climbing the trees, rolling in the grass. I felt seen, with no need to explain myself, to just be.
Then I got older and began to question everything, a critical part of my life, but one that took me away from nature. Saw me living in a city, smothering myself almost. I know now though, that it was part of my transformation. We have to push ourselves, take ourselves to the limit.
Then I entered another stage of my life, I became a mother. From the moment I discovered I was pregnant, I was bowled over by the amount of love I felt for this being growing inside of me. It blew me away. And it only got stronger and stronger, as though that was even possible.
I knew I would do anything for this little being, anything. That moment when I first got to lay eyes on each one of them, the love was just flowing right out of me. Looking into their eyes, for the first time. My life felt complete.
Then you get to experience, the love that they have for you. It's amazing how much it grows, how it changes. Takes different forms, but it is always, unconditional love. It's something you share and it transforms you. It is the foundation, of my relationship with my children.
It is also, something I am trying to do for myself. To love myself unconditionally. It's something we are born doing, but it gets taken from us.
As we try and navigate a world, that does not value self love. But we can journey back, making our way back to that state of being.
Unconditional love.
This is my response to one of the writing prompts from the Weekend Engagement Challenge, which asked about our experience with Unconditional Love.
