A little girl once said the phrase that is the title of this publication.
Why did she say it?
At times in her childhood it bothered her strongly that she was not allowed to do some things like going out to the swimming pool, while her siblings were allowed to do so. It bothered her that they criticized her if she wanted to play soccer or basketball, that they told her to behave like a child.
What did holding a ball have to do with her genitals?
Since she was a child, she wanted a world with much more equality, she thought that everyone should have the same opportunities. It bothered her to have to stay at home cleaning the room while her brothers were allowed to go out and have fun, she thought it was not fair and in her innocence she believed that at some point she would have the opportunity to be a male to know what it felt like and to be able to do all the things that as a girl she was forbidden to do.
Then one day she told her mother that when she grew up she was going to be a boy and that boys would surely become girls at some point, it was just a crazy idea that went through her mind in her childhood innocence.
I remember when I said that, it is not such a clear memory because I was quite small, however, some trace remains in the recesses of my mind and, in addition, my mother often told that story and sometimes we laughed about it.
Now, after so many years I don't want to be a man, I feel good being a woman, although I don't know if what I said when I was a child has to do with my preference for having partners of the same sex.
To be honest, I love being a woman and liking a woman, for me it is perfect and wonderful, I would not want my tastes in that sense to be different.
Although, I confess that sometimes I have some fantasies, I would like at least once a year to have the body of a man and feel carnally as a man feels and having made morphosis share intimacy with a beautiful lady, to know how it feels.... I'm just curious.
Sometimes I see a man so attractive and interesting that instead of being attracted to him, I would like to borrow his body for a day so I could experiment.
I also like the physical strength that men have by nature. I like to do as many things as possible by myself, sometimes it bothers me to have to wait for a man to help me in some task that requires strength, such as carrying the domestic gas cylinder. Many times I did it myself and now my spine suffers from so many abuses, although it is possible that this strength more than in the muscles is in the mind, stories have been told of incredible feats of women lifting cars and heavy logs to save a loved one.
Lately I myself have also boasted of physical strength outside the standard attributed to the female sex, doing maneuvers with my mother who is bedridden and in those moments I don't even remember the injury to my spine.
In my humble opinion I believe that the differences between women and men lie mainly in physical and physiological aspects, I believe that behaviors, attitudes, skills and ways of thinking are learned and often driven by society itself.
To this day, I reiterate, I feel good being a woman and I understand why my mother took so much care of my sisters and me, girls are really more at risk than boys. There are many degenerates who believe they are unable to control their erections and end up abusing girls and women, treating them as sexual objects, even many children are also victims, it is a shame and a reality that breaks my soul.
If I were a man for a day, a moment or a certain time, I don't think it would change my perspective on life at all. For me it would be just a moment of carnal enjoyment, I would take advantage of that moment to experiment as I have already said, in a relationship consensual and longed for by both parties. It's not the first time I think of something like this, I even sometimes play around with it.
In the past, I've asked a couple of girls I've been with that if I suddenly sprouted a penis they would still want to be with me, they both said yes, but the answer from one of them really melted me. She said:
"Of course I do, I like your being, your essence. The rest is indifferent."
Of course, in addition to enjoying myself carnally with a beautiful lady, I would take advantage of my moment of masculinity to smash the face of any degenerate I could find on the street trying to rape a female. And it is not that I am promoting violence but something must be done about it and I notice that little is being done.
Life is a challenge, both women and men are pressured by society to be a certain way or act a certain way. No one can ever be in the other's shoes, no one can ever feel the way the other feels. Respecting each other in our differences, complementing each other in our weaknesses and strengths is a utopia but we can always do our bit to do our part as best we can.
It's been a few years, I didn't grow much in height but to that girl I'm a giant, I don't want to be a man anymore, I like who I am.
Thank you for accompanying me. I wish you good health and a dignified life.
Photographs of my property.