Each and every one of us wished for a good life and wants the best for ourselves now and in the future; however, not everyone is certain of what the future holds for them, and this leads to fear of uncertainty and depression that can be detrimental to their mental well-being. Some of the reasons such doubt arose are financial constraints, deteriorating health issues, and several others. Believe me, this can be a pain in the ass, and I for one can say this because I could as well say I'm in that situation myself, and that's why I'll be using this article to shed light on what's causing the doubt and how I've been holding up.
You see, while growing up, I was a happy young man who was full of life and excitement about things around me. In fact, I've got loads of plans for the future, laying down plans upon plans regarding what I wish to become, what I want to do, what I want to accomplish, and at what age I want each to be actualised. That and several others rang through my head, and that alone is a strong motivational force that keeps me going and inspired to face every challenge that comes towards my part in attaining my desired future.
Unfortunately for me and my plans about my future, things went south when I was plagued with a health issue relating to my liver that has made me dependent on drugs to stay fit and agile. Since plagued with this health issue, my happiness has gradually faded away, and so has the excitement I had towards my future and how I want to live it. In fact, since this issue, I've been so uncertain about the future that I stop dreaming and watch several ages I've laid down plans to accomplish things go by without me taking a step towards it.
Living a life like this can be so annoying, because I'm literally living each day as it comes, with the only thing mostly ringing through my head being, Is today going to be the day it all comes to an end? This isn't a life I anticipated for myself, and seeing how things are going, I was getting depressed by the day; in fact, I even forgot how to smile, love, and do several other things because, to me, why should I do either of that? I mean, this deteriorating health has made me forget what it feels like to be genuinely happy.
Fortunately, things changed for good less than two years ago when I sat under the teaching of a reputable man in my country; his words hit me hard, and I just came back to my senses and was like, Even if this issue might probably lead to my end, I don't want my life to end in a miserable way, and so I started dreaming again. Changing this mindset that had held me captive for years wasn't an easy one, but I found a way around it.
After critical thinking and trying several methods to change the mindset without a breakthrough, I finally found one that works, and that was making and working towards long-term plans for my own future. Since the illness, I've diverted my attention to giving my siblings a good life I might not get to have, but after that teaching, I had a mindset restitution that refocused my mind on my own life and future mostly.
Some of the steps I took were buying a landed property, investing in building a house of my own, buying long-term household appliances, and investing in different things that'll yield more for me in the near future. I even gave love a chance once again, and all of these put together just reignited the fire of my future plans that was quenched by my fear and doubt of the future that arose due to my health issues.
Although it's not like I'm a hundred percent healthy now, this newfound zeal and fire have kept me going and made me more happy and confident about my future and that I'll sail through each challenge that comes my way, including this one related to my health. Now I believe I'm at the wheel of my life, and I'll drive it in any direction and pace I want it to go and not give room for my health or any other thing to take the wheel from me ever again.
All photos are mine.