Bro! I feel you on this one and appreciate your reflection and awareness of your own shortcomings.
Still, we are generally our own worst critics and changing that inner monolog to positive self-talk is a major first step. Hate to see anyone be this hard on themselves.
You see things you want to change and recognize that you've not changed them in the past, good, now do a little thing to improve one aspect of it and don't forget to congratulate yourself on your progress no matter how small.
Spend too much time on the internet and don't think you're fit? Turn it off and go for a walk. That kills two birds with one stone.
I look forward to hearing about your progress.
!PIMP
!PIZZA
RE: I am a Loser