I have the energy of a hundred people and I never get exhausted, I am a people's person. I have the most amazing friends and family around me. I am not a people pleaser because I have grown to just love, simply love and because of this, it is usually very difficult to differentiate my me time, work time, study time, family time and friendship time.
Well, in my introductory post, I did say i am a doctor and an extrovert so I am sure, this post is not going to come off as a surprise to anyone and I also did say I talk a lot, in my own words "For someone who can talk for 24hours in 24 hours".
This is why I take social media breaks.
Going offline for a few days gives me a sense of presence within myself, It helps me to analyze and process what I have gotten done in the past week and what I need to get done within my break time. It helps me to check in on myself mentally, get my hair done, get my dresses sewn ,study, get my nails done, study again , work, strategically journal out my business ideas, I also use this time to go through my work dashboard to dot all I's and T's.
During this period, I do not just go off on every social media platform, I go off on friends too, It is my ME time. I have never attempted going off on family, family means the world to me, so I still speak with my mum everyday as usual and I still speak with my 2 extraordinary brothers, well! when i had a boyfriend, now I am single or maybe I am not, lol. I used to speak with him during this time too.
When I attempted my first social media break, I told my closest friends because I did not want them to get really worried about me, haha! that did not work out as planned. They immediately assumed I was sad, anxious, depressed and every other negative word you can think of. They tried so perfectly to keep me happy, my girls contacted some of my friends in school and asked them to reach out to me, they went as far as sending me food, gifts and get well soon flowers.
It was then I realized how different, graced and indispensable I am, my presence would light up a dark room, my friends speak to me about their individual problems, sometimes more than they speak to themselves, I am a very pro-active person, I do not see problems, I see a task, so when my friends come to me with any problem at all, my first instinct is to find a solution and times that I cannot, I simply just PRAY. Taking this breaks became more difficult because I got tired of having to explain the same thing in the exact same sentence( I AM OKAY) over and over again. Well, I wouldn't blame them, I would talk about everything and anything but myself, my feelings or my pain, if any. The only thing I ever say is "I am poor".
It took me a lot to learn and understand that these break is for me and no one will die within these few days. These days I just inform them that I will be offline and if its extremely important, they should send an email. My friends have not gotten use to it yet, they believe I am sad but here I am on hive enjoying my peace and sanity.
I just love it here.
