Since I was 17 years old to be precise in 2nd grade of high school, every night, these sounds always disturbed my sleep, made me scared, sad and felt like I wanted to be angry. The voices were the emotional outbursts of the father and the sobs of the mother.
For about a year, father and mother often fought every night. Fighting both want a divorce or end a household that has been lived for more or less 21 years. The peak of the fight ended on Thursday afternoon, when I was in 3nd grade of high school before graduation, finally my father and mother officially divorced.
Of course I found that I cried and didn't know what to do. My mind is full of black clouds of confusion, my heart is filled with sorrow, fear and worry. Since my father and mother's divorce, for more than three months I have lived at my grandmother's house and could only stay silent in my room. I didn't participate in the school graduation celebrations because I was a bit embarrassed, meeting friends also felt embarrassed.
I only dared to communicate with two people, my grandmother and my boyfriend. Every morning my boyfriend always sees me and sometimes brings my favorite food. The point is my social life is messy, my world is also limited to my grandmother's house and the garden behind the house. I also still can't sleep well because the incident is still clear in my head.
Day after day passed. Sad, afraid, disappointed still feel at home enveloping me, but all those feelings started to disappear a little since my boyfriend asked me to sit together at night in my grandmother's garden behind the house.
That night the atmosphere was quite quiet, the wind could be heard clearly, the sound of leaves falling and being carried by the wind could be heard clearly.
"Honey" said my boyfriend while sitting in front of me
I just looked at him with pretty empty eyes.
“Sometimes plans and expectations don't match reality. Even so, believe that fate and God's plans are always beautiful in the end, even though sometimes the bitter reality that we see and feel first." Said my boyfriend
"But your parents are still intact while my parents are divorced, how can you feel what I'm feeling right now?"said myself
“It's true, my parents are still intact, but I feel everything you feel. Believe me, even though your family is not complete, you still have to be firm in pursuing your goals and making dreams come true. Your parents' divorce made me realize how to accept circumstances without hating myself and hating life. Remember, don't compare your own life with the lives of others, in essence all human life paths have been arranged by God, whether in a state of happiness or injury. Trust me, everything will be fine.” My girlfriend said while hugging me
In my boyfriend's arms I couldn't hold back my tears, I cried a lot but my heart that was full of burdened feelings suddenly felt empty and I realized exactly what my boyfriend said that even though my family was no longer whole, I had to make peace and keep my spirits up Chase your goals and make dreams come true.