I was so stressed earlier that I couldn't even do what I wanted to do. There are many things I planned to do but my mind is full of some thoughts and I couldn't even start doing something.
Thankfully the stars above are comforting me. They are all twinkling and it seems like they're saying ‘It’s okay, be positive. There's a hope.’ I smiled a little, then put my arms at the back of my head. I lay down without tearing my eyes up above.
In just a minutes, I felt someone just lay down beside me on this carpet grass.
“Tss, I know it's you again… Crister.” I said without even gazing at him.
I was fourtheen when I met him, he became my friend and from that day on I considered him as my brother.
“You’re always looking up the stars above. Why don't you look at me instead.” he said like a child getting jealous. For a seconds, I turned my gaze at him.
“You know how much I love the stars right? Tss.” I flipped my hair and I glared at him. I look at the stars again while thinking for something.
Something that no one would never know.
A secret can't tell.
“Annoying. I always share to you my secrets, my problems and everything what's in my mind. But you… you're so quiet.” I know that he's now pouting like a child. Tss, my silly best friend.
“There’s nothing. It's just about my work.” I lied.
“Wow, you love your work, Azey.” He sighed heavily “Is it your boyfriend that bothering you?” he chuckled and pinch my cheeks!
“Hey! Stop it, I don't have a boyfriend.”
“Hey! Atleast say it to my face not at the stars above.” he held my chin and force me to look at him. “Sometimes I'm getting jealous with the stars above, huh. Why don't you look at me instead?” he slowly grinned while looking at my face. I was just stunned and I couldn't move my face.
“I’m a star too. But you don't look at me the way you look up the stars above.”
He is a rising Filipino Star, yes he's an artist. My best friend is an artist. But I never felt that I'm far from him because he never let it happen.
I love that, and I don't want anything to change that relationship with him.
“I’m so proud of you.” that's the least thing I can say now while we're facing each other. That's the truth. I'm so proud of him.
He then sweetly smiled “Thank you…” he said in serious tone “Thank you for being my supportive best friend. I'm so bless to have you.”
“I’m bless to have you too. Don't worry about me now because it's just a girl probs haha…” I chuckled a bit and turned my gaze above.
“Like… oh! Don't tell me you like someone now?” he then chuckled and started to tease me.
“I-I don't!” I panicked because I don't know what to say!
“You sure? Hahaha.” he keep on teasing me so I felt my cheeks are getting red. “It’s okay to tell me, I'm your friend.”
“Tsss, it's just a small thing. Anyway, why you're so early today?” I asked because the time is just 7PM and he usually go home at 9PM.
I saw how his face become serious.
“I… I want to tell you something.” Omy, what is that. My heart beats fast so I got nervous and started to erase the feeling.
“Something like?” I don't know but the hope inside me suddenly arise. But I want to delete that feelings again.
I know I shouldn't feel this way towards him.
“Something like… oh, just meet me on Wednesday. I'll text you the details.” He smiled. He slowly stood up “Please meet me on that day, I have something important to tell.”
“O-okay!”
Time flies so fast. And I'm still thinking about that Wednesday. The day he told me something. Something that I expected to him in the very first place.
He know how I love the stars so much. But now, he is joyfully standing right in front of me, my best friend, Crister. He is now happily married with the woman he love. But sadly she's not me.
I remember that Wednesday, when he introduced the girl he likes. And on that same day, I'm planning to tell him my feelings for him.
Even so, I'm still happy for him. And I'm thankful that our friendships remain as what I'm concerned with.
Because until now, he doesn't know that among the stars I looked up, he is my favorite. He is my favorite star. And the stars above reminds me of him.
I know this feelings is just one sided that's why in the very first place, I don't have the plan to admit.
~He is the greatest
star standing that I knew...
I couldn't have.
