When it comes to good communication, I'm not good at it.
I'm an introvert and I find it difficult to communicate with people.
My friends and my family members having complaining of this particular bad behavior of not having proper communication with them. Sometimes I find it hard to reply text and phone calls 🤙📞.
I was always a very chatty person not until I got depressed in 2022 and I got betrayed by my close friends. These things really hurts me so much, I was down emotionally and physically, some of my family members just made me feel rest of myself, all these things made me become a shadow of my own self. The happy and vibrant side of me grew cold ❄️.
I Stopped having friends, I stayed far away from extended family members, I became antisocial, I hated human beings.
The only thing that didn't come to my mind then was suicide.
Then I felt sick and things grew worse, at this point in my life nobody actually cared about me, I was surrounded by people but I felt all alone, I needed somebody to talk to but there was none. Some close family members saw me as a psychopath. No one wanted to have anything to do with me at that point in my life, when I needed people most .
Even the so-called best friend I had as at that time, abandoned me, she never called to check her I was feeling, if I was alright.
It's funny how a lot of people don't believe depression is real, especially in Nigerians or maybe Africa in general. Even the people close to me didn't even realize I was depressed, they all thought I was just a weird lady or probably psychopath.
It's funny how I was fighting anxiety, depression, panic attacks and the worst of it all, was when I lost the only person that could give me hope if she was available.
Although she was very much older than me, but she was my very good friend, it just brief illness and she passed on.
This was another period When I was broken.
I'm not writing this for sympathy, but I'm writing this for everyone who has family members and friends around them, family member or a friend who is acting on usual, try you're very best to talk to them, show them how much you love them, tell them nice words, doing this things will actually show that you care.
As at the time I was depressed, I was acting so unusual and no one noticed, it was when it got so bad, I had to go to the hospital to check myself, because I couldn't sleep for a whole week, that was when I knew something was wrong with me.
My dad figured out later that I wasn't good, but before them I was down already. Maybe in another Blog, I might share the reason why I was depressed.
After i got passed this phrase of life, I totally changed, I'm no longer that chatty lady anymore, the same relatives and friends who never checked to know what was wrong with me and criticized me are the ones complaining of my bad communication, meanwhile the contributed to it.
So fellas, always check on your loved one, on your sibling, your partner and anybody if you is acting on unusual, you're kind words could make a big difference and could also give them a ray of hope.