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I had a good dialysis today, my blood pressure had remained stable throughout the treatment process and so because of that my nurses didn't fiddle around the dialysis machine like like for example adding saline solution to my system in order to raise my blood pressure, cutting the fluid outtake from my body by 100-200 mL, or slowing down the blood pump.
So I just completed the session without a fuss even though I wasn't able to achieve my target goal by 200 mL short. Next time I will just add about 400 mL so that I could be able to reach the best dry weight possible without crashing my blood pressure.
Then after we had gone home I was able to eat what mother had bought me at the nearby convenience store. It was just a big piece of fried chicken with packed rice and gravy. For now that is what is available from that favorite convenience store of mine where it serves the food item that I always wanted to eat, some fried pieces of pork with gravy.
It is really not that delicious, it is just at dialysis my appetite comes back so I am able to eat more plus at that time a few months ago my mother also comes inside to assist me in eating that meal.
Now the center just bans the caregivers and relatives to go inside the dialysis center altogether. At first they were allowed if they would have to feed their patients then after a while they just didn't allow the relatives or caregivers to enter the treatment area anymore.
The task of feeding the patients now lies to the nurses. One of the head nurse told me not to be shy in being assisted by them if I wanted to eat, that if I would ever to be assisted like feeding me literally with spoon and fork I can just request them to do so.
Well I am not comfortable being spoon-fed by other people that doesn't care about me even though if it was their task to do so like in my dialysis center. As long as I can still move my arms I will try to eat by myself without being assisted plus it is just embarrassing for me to be seen opening my mouth and some nurse putting food in it, it will not going to happen.
Why would my dialysis center ban the relatives to go inside the treatment area?
There is a bit of politics too in the dialysis center and it actually lead to what I had said above. It is because for years some well-to-do patients would give foods, gifts, etc. to nurses so that the nurses will take extra care for the said patients.
I've been a dialysis patient for many years in my current center and I did observed that. So I just kept my mouth shut and shrugged it off and just minded my own business, after all what I just wanted is to get my dialysis done and that's it. Then those patients had come and gone, came and gone, over and over until the hospital administration had learned about it and banned eating inside the dialysis center.
No More Relatives Allowed Now
The patients can still eat but not with their relatives assisting them anymore and that task had fallen to the hands of the nurses now which is not an issue anyway for them as it was just an added task for them to do so.
Well that is just a bummer because I will not be able to be with my mother while eating. So I end-up just taking my candies every hour and drinking my energy drink. My focus is to survive dialysis and complete the four hour ordeal.
I just pity my parents having to drive me back and forth the hospital because they are growing old and I too is getting embarrassed having my parents do all that trouble for me. That is why I hope that in the near future I can just hire somebody that could assist me for my needs and never bother anyone of my lovedones anymore because of my unfortunate disposition in life.