I've been up all night because I slept the whole day, my night life is on and I had been making my nights as my day because I just enjoy the peace of the night that's all. If I would also sleep then eating for me will become difficult which is why I tend to be up all night if I plan to eat more the next morning.
I am now bathed and dressed-up and ready to go for my dialysis. My mother got up at 2:00 AM just to prepare the things that we would need. This just means that without my mother around I myself will just be in a hard situation especially during my dialysis days. My parent's mere existence is really so important for me for that matter.
I also ate rice with some hotdogs and a couple of eggs plus a piece of small banana. I tried to finish it all considering the portion size of the rice that my mother had given me and I finished it all anyway because I dipped the remaining rice in coffee with my spoon and swallowed the rice without much chewing it.
But even though I did ate a lot prior to my dialysis I can still eat a lot while I am hooked up because the cleaning process of the dialysis gives back my appetite. The only difference is that I get to enjoy my food while hooked-up at dialysis unlike at my normal days where I just eat because I needed to put some nutrition into my body.
My appetiteloss is my compromise in taking my Parathyroid medicine because I needed to cure my bone issues and a poor appetite is the price that I have to also pay besides the cost of Cinacalcet and my phosphate binder. So I just have to keep my patience about my drug therapy and strict diet in order for me to achieve a near normal life free of pain.