I am limiting my meals to no more than once a day. Sometimes I would eat very early and then eat in the late afternoon or would just eat late in the morning and then will just eat a piece of toasted bread with nothing in it so that I won't get hungry or get the signs of low blood sugar deep in the night time.
The reason for such peculiar meals is for me to be able to eat well because if I would eat just because it is time to eat I will not enjoy my food as it will feel like a chore already just like in the past.
I am basically doing the intermittent fasting method in a sense of having only one major meal per day. I do think that every person should do the same because we are just doing what our bodies wants so that it won't get fat and cause it harm.
We do harm in our bodies with foods if we overeat and drink concentrated sugars and fats and then having them in consistent basis not to mention ingesting minuscule amounts of additives in a consistent or frequent basis which in the long-term will cause the body's cells to react. The result is a conked-out organ or an abnormally dividing cell we call cancer that would cause pain and all that financial and emotional burden to us and our love ones.
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Anyway my plan for just eating once this day was my appetite. Because I really wanted to eat as much as I want but with an appetiteloss issues that has been going on for many years now ever since I had started my Cinacalcet therapy my appetite has been in the crapper all these time.
I had tried a lot of options just to get my appetite going but no use, I tried taking appetite enhancers but they just don't restore my natural urge to eat food. Even with eating kimchi now with my diet only allows me to eat more but it doesn't mean that I had the zeal to eat or that I am enjoying it, I am not.
I just wished that I had more money so that I could get to buy more variety of foods than I can order online but my money is just limited and is just enough really for my medicines and some foods that I crave. Kimchi is also expensive relatively and I was surprised that I was able to consume more than a kilo of it in a week as my father also had gone the liking of the taste of it as well.
I also needed that Kidney patient's milk supplement that is called "Nephro can", it is a meal substitute if the patient doesn't want to eat then a can of it is just enough for a single meal requirement. It too is very expensive for me to consume in a day because of the earnings that I make everyday.
One reason that I do not want to eat frequently is that I do not want to get filled-up fast with fluids because of course if I would eat more then also I would have to drink. I just have a little room in my body before I would feel breathless so I am also forced not to eat frequently.
Now I do not look at the foods the way I am before because they are also the cause of my poisoning in one way or the other. My diet is so restricted now and yet I am suffering from an appetiteloss that it feels like I am not allowed to enjoy even small portions of foods in a daily basis. I could say now that I am just eating just to survive and there are no more excitement for me even when there is a delicious foods on my table anymore.
That is my life now and that is what I am dealing with sun-up and sun-down. I already know that this life is not for me and I am just glad that I had met my loved ones and the people around the world that is concerned for my welfare. I thank you all for being a part of my life and may God also bless you all because of your kindness to me.