I will be God-willing be going for an early dialysis at 5:30 AM tomorrow, it is really quite early so my parents had gone to bed early too because my mother would have to get up at around 2:00 AM just to prepare in what we will bring like foods especially the food that I will going to eat prior to my hook-up.
I am just sad that I am dragging my parents with this kind of unfortunate situation where I have to bother them in getting up so early in the morning to make our journey to the dialysis center so that I could get my blood cleaned-out.
If only there is a way that I can hire somebody to do what they are doing but I myself cannot do that because I am just making ends meet with what a meager money that I am earning so that I can continue to support my drug therapy for my hyperparathyroid and controlling my phosphorus intake with my phosphate binder which is quite hard to buy if you do not earn something to sustain it.
I am also paying for the hospital bills for my every visit to the dialysis center which is why I can only go less frequently now than what I want to happen because of these financial expenses which are really hard to bear.
That is why I am appreciating you my friends that have the time to support me because without you all I will not make it to reach this current time of my prodigal life as no one really around me is supporting me other than my online friends like you even though some of you I know only through your Avatars and thoughtful comments and other valuable support.
So I am trying to fight for my survival and achieving a level of normality in my life which is free from pain and suffering until the end of my little time left. For me it is better to fight and be awarded with a scepter of success or die trying than to give-up even though in the back of my mind it is better to let go already because of my rather hopeless situation in life.
But friends like you are fighting alongside me so I just now rather continue to struggle on because it is the right thing to do because I do not want to disappoint you, together we will win, it is just a matter of time and more prayers. God bless you all.