It is just very hard to wait for my treatment session days because in-between my session days toxins and fluids just builds-up in my body causing many discomfort. It is just now I am not bothered much with my water load because I am able to be the one that tells my nurses how much fluids that they have to take out from my body.
For that reason I can be able to calculate how heavy or light I will be after my dialysis. That is a good thing because I will just be able to feel right and not like in my former months like last year or so that I am going home feeling bloated still.
But my dialysis center is also playing safe with the way they give treatments to patients because I am feeling that they give "mellow" treatments which causes the patients to not lower their creatinine levels as well as other substances from their bodies that should be normalized in order to feel much better. But they are failing to do so which is why we just do not feel better with ourselves most of the time.
But the major cause of mortality in my center is being congested with fluids. Maybe now it is getting curved because right after I was able to be the one to tell my nurses how much water they should take out from my body they also had done that to other patients. They no longer are deciding how much fluids that they would take.
They are now asking the patients how much fluids they they should take off which is really amazing because it will mean a more satisfied patient in that regard but still i am not quit satisfied because of the low standards of the way they dialyze patients.
I am just waiting patiently about how I can receive a better medical treatment and if I would get the chance or funding I will really opt-in for a Kidney transplant because I am really, really fed-off with this kind of life where I have to go to a place that i do not want to, mingle with people that doesn't care about me, thinking about my expenses, and all that.
But if I were to get a new Kidney I might feel even for a short while a normality like that of when I was born. I am still not losing hope that something good might still happen in my life so I just have to move on and work for it to happen.